愛戀 ‧ 情曲 ‧ 神の語

今天晚上恰巧有時間看完換換愛剩下的最後一集, 後面幾幕還真的很感人. 最後幾集小美突然生什麼怪病有點感覺是想拉收視率, 但結尾居然還蠻感動的.
最後一集的感人片段:
換換愛 Ep15 (8/10)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TN2n_53R9lg&feature=related
換換愛 Ep15 (9/10)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2oETAsN8MRU&feature=related
整體來看, 我從一開始就最喜歡王傳一(演技比較好)和他的角色(性格最成熟), 他唱的片頭曲也很好聽. 裡頭讓我哭的都是關於傳一的, 特別是親情的部分. 最後一集裡當他有心臟問題卻義無反顧的要為小美捐肝, 和他安慰那個從沒有真正關心過他的爸爸的對話, 和醫生告訴躺在病床上的小美說捐贈者是「是你哥哥」, 到最後安慰小美的那番話. 他大概是劇裡最成熟的. 他當然也有不完美的地方, 剛開始發生事情不信任寶島阿信, 還有最後在別人的幫助小才化解了他對他媽的誤解, 雖然當初他大概還是會選擇留在他媽身邊也不要被賣掉. 那段超感人的, 又是讓我落淚的.
Ep 13 (2/8)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDZVXWOaqcs&feature=related
Ep 13 (3/8)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMPkGy8Q-8I&feature=related
很感人的親情片段, 和媽見面和她倒下後繼續吃麵的那一幕有點文藝片的意境. 後面那張從來沒有兌換的五百萬支票, 超感人.
其實電視劇都誇大嗎? 故事呈現上當然是的, 但為什麼會感人還是有他的理由的. 因為感人的劇情還不是從現實的體驗中才有的. 甚至更戲劇化. 有些人你想要去了解原因, 也已經不在人世了. (還好感謝主, 有永恆所以以後還有機會.) 誇張嗎? 一點也不. 就像照正常, 傳一大概不會再見到他媽. 反過來想想看, 他媽也沒有比較好受, 超難受, 還不是因為愛他, 所以為什麼那張支票會讓我掉淚.
說完了傳一, 我喜歡小美的地方就是他夠朋友. 也許有時表現的方法不是最好, 甚至很笨, 但我覺得那個對朋友的義氣是和我同掛的. 這也是為什麼他那些死黨知道他的病後都要為他捐肝. 他在對人也比傳一能更體諒人的心境. 人常說要就事論事, 執行上是如此, 但人的情感真的能像機器被完全切割嗎? 一件事也許能就事論事的處理, 但一個人卻沒有辦法. 讓我想到對我一生影響很大的一句話就是, 也許有人知道「罪」和「罪人」的差別. 大家也常說我們不愛罪, 愛罪人. 這是正確的, 上帝也分辨的出這兩者的不同. 但是重點是, 就是很多那些需要的人, 當你和她們說罪和罪人不同時他們不了, 不是故意的, 但就真是不了. 你說罪他們感受你在說罪人. 這不是說就不要分明罪和罪人的區別了或是我們認同罪, 而是真正會關心人的人會知道, 人的感情, 思維, 和過去的經歷都是無法分離的. 只要簡單想想, 多少信主的人是因為有人明確了闡明了什麼是罪什麼是真理, 還是因為他們先經歷到了神自己的真實, 祂的愛, 祂的平安喜樂, 那看見罪只是遲早的事. 上帝是全宇宙最有感情的天父, 耶穌的死, 最要強調的是天父的愛, 而不只單來說明一些神學上的必要性(約3:16-17). 反過來說, 不會體諒人在神眼中不是更大的罪嗎? 什麼是耶穌的榜樣, 仔細看過新約的都會知道. 祂沒容忍罪, 但看祂最不能容忍的是哪一群人(這部分在我「第四個異夢 -- 耶和華不像人看人」的文章裡有更詳細記述). 真理不是一個道理而已, 真理是愛. 這就是為什麼耶穌說祂就是真理, 因為祂就是愛. 耶穌不是個道理, 也許這就是很多人需要經歷到, 信耶穌不是只是理性上認同一些教義, 而是和一位真實愛你的神一個真實的關係 -- 一切都是最真實的愛.
哈哈, 鬼扯到哪裡去了, 認識猴媽的人都會了我的習慣. 丞琳呢? 她和她的姊妹掏小南也都很夠朋友我喜歡. 特別是那個小南, 凶了點, 甚至很衝動, 但超有義氣, 也很好笑. 不過不曉得為什麼, 我還沒有喜歡過楊丞琳演的戲. 換換愛和惡魔在身邊很多地方都好像, 主要演員和他們的個性都幾乎一樣(也是小美, 丞琳和傳一演的), 但換換愛有小好看一點. 我真的覺得好看的台灣電視劇到目前只有惡作劇之吻(第一集), 和轉角遇到愛, 然後公主小妹還可以. 不過換換愛還是學到不少東西, 學習表達溝通真的不容易但卻很重要.
最後覺得賽車和賽車服很帥(下面有連結), 傳一故意輸掉賽車那裡也超帥. 走時還想起之前媽媽信上的話. 這就是為什麼我最喜歡他, 之前沒法完全體諒他媽, 情場失意, 爸不關心他, 無法答應妍書(Judy飾), 心臟問題, 他卻可以帶著經驗繼續向前. 埃, 其實另一個很直得同情的就是妍書. 她絕對不會比傳一好過, 家庭事業失敗, 被傳一爸另眼相看, 被懷疑甚至要被離職(還好傳一很man的救她, 這就是我喜歡傳一的地方), 最後還幫小美演戲遭到所有人的誤會唾棄. 她個性上是比較不討喜, 但整體上, 她受的傷遠遠超過她的不可愛, 她不可愛的地方也是因為長期受傷而導致的. 我覺得看人不能只從一兩件事來看不完整, 前因後果, 前面提過. 美好的結局, 也許會想說她最後應該會終於能和她的白馬王子在一起了吧, 結果. 傳一還是沒辦法接受. 我覺得這是傳一最討厭的地方了, 超想打他. 妍書成長了很多, 她是個不錯的女孩, 死心踏地的愛著傳一. 但愛情這檔事能怪誰, 我知道如果是在現實世界, 他們彼此都會找到幸福的, 他們的對象也是最幸福的. 哈哈, 但如果有外傳, 我一定把他們兩個湊成一對, 有天他們兩個也要當主角.
Ep 13 (4/8)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJPpu-Ps-7E&feature=related
喘口氣, 換換愛終於看完了. 最後一集真是讓我眼睛哭的好腫. 眼淚掉很多眼睛會又腫又痛, 隔天起來也還是會有感覺. 接下來, 看看蜂蜜幸運草吧. 剛好我沒辦法一次看太多, 有時間讓蜂蜜先全部撥完.

因為這是我們的紀念日
所以快到夜半的時候我的頭髮剪完了
然後就十二點了
我們第十二年的第一天
昨天一起走過的十一年
代表我對你的始終如一
我很幸運
幸運不是一種機會
幸運是你
我是全世界最幸運的人
因為我不但最幸運
我也最幸福
所以第十一年眼淚要抱怨的很多很多
剛才突然都想不起來了
真的沒誇張
我想是因為我在想...
我在想你吧
在流很多眼淚的十一
點播紀念日手紙的第一首輕快歌曲給你
愛會讓一切完美
愛會曬乾了眼淚
剩下的都是幸運
全世界的人都誤會我也不在乎
只要你懂
只要你說你懂
那就是我的全世界
那十一也可以瞬間變成我專屬的幸運數字
所以如果我說
愛你
能不能
永遠相信
I Love You
「流淚撒種的, 必歡呼收割」 -- 詩126:5
獻上歌曲: LaLaLa愛情密碼 (翻滾吧! 蛋炒飯) & 想你的習慣 (蜂蜜幸運草)

想你的習慣
 
演唱: 小宇  蜂蜜幸運草原聲帶
 
 
這樣簡單你走過來　而我終於明白了　自己為何要存在
慢慢的我已經離不開　因為我已愛上你了　沒有任何原因的
如果我說愛你　能不能永遠相信
這一天我想跟著你　跟你說你最愛的笑話　我想以後都能在一起
每天想著你已變成習慣　一直幻想你在我身邊
牽著你的手　我和你　甜蜜的走
世界寬得有一些無奈　你和我只有一個　該怎麼不怕孤單
說好了我們都要勇敢　就算不小心迷路了　也能夠聽見你的
如果我說愛你　能不能永遠相信
找到你的幸運多完美(多完美)
所有感覺多特別(多特別)
想帶你走到世界邊緣
未來　不變

LaLaLa愛情密碼
 
演唱: 卓文萱  翻滾吧! 蛋炒飯原聲帶
 
 
窗外有麻雀 好心情沒睡
琴鍵上有愛的和弦 幫想念對嘴
別喝黑咖啡 加點蜂蜜調味
有翅膀 就該舒服的飛
OH~~ One Two Three 聽見沒
希望我可以 自由自在不怕黑
我辛苦點OK 受傷無所謂
因為愛會曬乾眼淚
希望天使 希望天使
能多陪我一下子
但心跳弦律出現 輕快的拍子
你是天使 你是天使
我想為你寫首歌
歌詞全都是LALALA
OH~~ just for you
LA~~~~~~
快樂的時候 偷懶一下下
我喜歡哼叫LALALA 等你附和我
不需要吉他 只需要悄悄話
LA~LA~LA~ 是愛情的密碼
OH~~ One Two Three 許個願
希望我可以 和你永遠在一起
要繞點路OK 不去無所謂
因為愛會讓一切完美
希望天使 希望天使
能在陪我一下子
但心跳弦律出現 輕快的拍子
你是天使 你是天使
我想為你唱首歌
歌詞詮釋微笑的歌
你是天使~~~~~~
你是我心跳 輕快的拍子
你是天使 你是天使
我想為你唱首歌
歌詞全都是LALALA
OH~~ just for you

這是以前有朋友問關於再洗(重洗)和選擇教會的問題, 我把它部分的刊登分享:
 
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 基本上「受洗」是個內心改變的外在表明 (西2:11-23). 在馬可16:16, 耶穌說「信而受洗的必然得救．不信的必被定罪。」. 是先相信後才受洗. 當然你也知道不是一定要受洗才會得救, 因為後面說「不信的」必被定罪, 而不是「沒受洗的」. 所以重點是那個「相信」, 而不是受洗, 「受洗」只是因著心裡的相信的一個外在表現. 而一個真正相信願意跟隨基督的人, 照理也是會願意受洗的, 因為那也是耶穌的一個教訓. 從整本聖經來看, 我們也知道得救是憑信心, 而不是行為. 這就是為什麼一般教會會比較認為, 如果一個人當初受洗的時候, 並不是非常了解救恩的真理及涵意, 但在來教會一段時日後被更多光照, 內心有真正的悔改, 對於基督有了真正的相信委身, 那到時候要不要再受洗一次就不是那麼的重要了, 因為重要的是那個心的改變和重生, 而不是水洗禮, 所以如果之前有受洗過, 就不用再受洗一遍了. 但當然如果當事人自己主動要求想要再受洗一次, 也是ok的. 所以我是認為神所「認定」的主要是那個心靈的重生悔改 (西2:11-23), 而不是之前受洗本身的這個禮儀. 如果一個人因著真實相信, 後來又再受洗一次, 那神所認定的, 也是他的心的改變, 而不是那個再次的洗禮的本身. 當然理想上最好是在(第一次)受洗前就是真正的重生, 然後受洗. 在這種情況下, 受洗就有很多意義, 好處, 和實質的屬靈影響. 所以最好是在一個人初次受洗前, 就能很確定他是真的已經相信得救. 如果覺得還沒, 也沒關係, 因為重點是在那個人有沒有先經歷神的愛, 和他和神有沒有建立一個良好關係, 而不是有沒有受洗. 所以可以鼓勵他, 不用急著受洗, 慢慢來, 告訴他神最在乎的是他能經歷耶穌的愛, 而不是受洗的本身. 通常一個人在真的有經歷後, 他也是會主動要求的. 不過這裡有一個問題, 那就是沒有人能每次在每個人身上都能100%的確定一個人是否有真實的相信. 即使一個有對救恩真理有無誤的知識的人, 有固定來教會, 也不能就保證這個人是真正的真實相信, 因為只有神知道人的心. 相反的, 有時一個人也許在用詞和理性認知上不是對救恩有百分百的徹透了解, 但有真實的相信接受耶穌, 那個人就是得救的. 例如和耶穌一同釘十架的其中一個囚犯, 就真實悔改了, 他肯定對救恩的神學認知上很淺, 也沒有機會受洗, 但卻是會與耶穌同在樂園的. 我不是說受洗不重要或是就不需要了, 受洗有它的意義在的, 只是受洗是在於一個心靈的重生後, 才有意義的. 就像有些人是在信主一段時日後, 基於一些理由都沒受洗, 但後來因著生命有更多的改變經歷神, 後來就會要求受洗了. 對於這類的弟兄姊妹, 可以跟他解釋受洗的意義和鼓勵他受洗, 但不需要給他任何壓力一定要馬上受洗. 這個是因為有時太看重受洗這個禮儀時, 反而會模糊信徒, 慕道友, 及非基督徒對救恩觀念和追求神的焦點. 所以一般來說, 教會不會要求人再洗, 只要一個人有受洗過, 然後他對神的認知上和自我的生命改變上有長進, 那就好了.
再來我們看在選擇委身哪間教會的考慮因素裡, 「受洗」的這個觀念立場的地位. 因為洗禮的教義不是個舉足輕重的基要真理 (如三位一體), 所以其實要更加考慮的是其他更重要的方面 (只要他們不是教導要受洗才能得救, 或是用一種很強硬的態度過分要求人一定要再洗). 除了在基要真理上ok (聖經無誤, 因信稱義, 三位一體, 耶穌的神性和人性等), 我個人認為一個好教會要是個要有愛的教會 (林前13:1-8). 有好的弟兄姊妹真實的會關心彼此, 有年齡不會差太多的弟兄姊妹可以互相交流扶持. 最好的是還有好的聖經教導, 能餵養羊群, 才能有實質的靈命成長. 所以一個教會的領袖團隊是關鍵. 一個充滿愛, 憐憫, 體貼包容的領袖群會關心你, 一個能教導聖經真理的領袖群會使你在靈性上成熟長大. 然後有弟兄姊妹的鼓勵扶持, 這就是一個蠻不錯及討神喜悅的教會. 至於其他次要方面像是是否說方言, 洗禮等, 就比較沒關係了. 當然, 最好的情況是能在各方面都兼顧的教會, 也有深度教導操練及平衡看待一些聖靈恩賜的環境, 講授聖靈的工作, 聖靈的洗和恩膏, 說翻方言, 預言啟示的領域, 作異夢看異象, 醫病趕鬼等, 不過這樣全方位的教會的確不多. 所以在作選擇時, 我是認為還是「愛和關係」放第一, 只要他們不是完全否定及極度排斥一些聖經靈恩教導就好. 不過我能了解, 如果能找到一間有愛又有在聖靈更新上的教會, 那會是理想的.
所以如果你認為現在這個教會的弟兄姊妹都熱心愛主愛人, 那聽起來還不錯. 看重神的話及常鼓勵傳福音是非常棒的. 在洗禮的認知上和他們有些差異應該是ok的. 如果你在這教會有感受到弟兄姊妹的關心, 也有年紀差不多的能彼此分享, 那應該不錯. 不過不知你是否有機會去別的教會看看過? 也許可以試試看. 當然最後還是要禱告尋求神的心意, 我也會特別在這方面為你禱告的, 相信神會信實的帶領你的每一個腳步, 滿了平安喜樂和愛. 的確, 好教會不多, 但神為你預備. 記得, 哪裡有愛, 哪裡就有耶穌的同在(約壹4:16), 這才是最重要的, 而不是人數的多少或是可以辦多大多華麗活動的教會. 教會是耶穌的新婦, 一切都始於在一個親密之愛的關係上.
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這是我一個朋友的故事, 另一個朋友聽了說這叫「白甘蔗之戀」, 不過是一部份而已, 我自己把他寫出來並取名為「深紅色」. 我覺得很感人, 所以我用第一人稱的方式描述出來. 我還欠這個朋友一個名字咧, 啊哈哈. 我還想不到啦!!!
人生如戲, 戲如人生, 有的時候反而現實比戲更要戲劇化.
六月是個很特別的月份, 每隔七年的六月更是如此. 第一個七年的六月, 我回台灣了, 回到了她的首都, 也回到了她的心臟. 畢業後要考慮換個地方住, 或是回台灣. 錢, 居住環境, 一般人會考量的因素, 對只要給我一秒就可以放棄全宇宙的個性來說, 都不重要, 一點都不重要.
還有一陣子, 再繼續禱告等候吧!!
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「深紅色」
熱情是紅色的, 玫瑰是紅色的, 口紅是紅色的, 鮮血是紅色的, 愛是紅色的, 都是紅色的.
如果說困苦流離的人, 世界到處都有. 如果真的要抉擇, 我想我會陷入兩難. 但自古兩全不能其美, 假設擁有楊過的心, 卻是郭靖的外表, 這是個亂世, 那只會甚下一個選擇. 對楊過來說只有小龍女比一切的江山重要, 對郭靖來說, 江山就是人們, 所以只會剩下一個選擇, 深紅色的選擇.
我永遠忘不了好久好久的以前, 我一個人走的故事. 我一個人, 因為所有人, 外表說的好聽, 說的頭頭是道, 但事情真的發生時, 沒有一個願意走, 願意放. 大家都是有頭銜的人, 除了我以外. 人人嘴上掛滿了屬靈台詞, 卻一眼就看穿其實大家背後都是在自顧己利. 顧自己的地位, 顧自己的名聲, 顧自己的服事, 顧自己的好處. 可以常常傳講要捨己, 心裡想要的東西感情面子沒有一個願意放. 「神的旨意」被拿來利用成為達成自我目標的政治工具. 「做事要有智慧」變成了掩蓋自己不擇手段的冠冕堂皇說詞. 「保護別人」, 說穿了, 最保護的其實是自己, 犧牲了別人, 自己的一切都要保護, 包括自己的錯誤軟弱. 最會的是會說卻不會做. 那裡看不到耶穌, 沒有基督的愛和生命, 沒有神的同在. 我沒有任何頭銜, 卻擔了有名號的人應該的工作和責任. 所以最後我決定悄悄的來, 也悄悄的走. 牧師和其他的弟兄姊妹無奈也不能做什麼, 就連神也不會強迫人. 最後離開那個牧區是應該也是因為愛.
我知道事情將會怎樣演變, 人種什麼收的就是什麼, 而事情就這樣發生了. 這不需要聖靈啟示的恩賜就可以預見, 只要稍微有一點點的屬靈常識就會知道, 為什麼有些人過了一輩子從來不真的認識神, 有些領袖只會躲在頭銜後面的不安全感, 其實並沒有想像的那麼複雜.
這一次的情況不太一樣, 很不一樣, 但最後主動的還是我, 每次都是我. 我永遠忘不了看見眼淚的那一次, 在我心裡我知道我的任務已經完成了, 但我還必須封殺一切情感, 矜持的把我的工作漂亮的作到最後. 那是一個有人到死都不會了解的百感交集. 結束了, 所以我也該走了, 也是因為紅色越來越紅, 越來越多, 再不行動就再不能拯救. 那一天的見證分享, 我是全世界最高興的人, 也是全世界最傷心的人, 所以也不是強顏歡笑, 也是甘心樂意, 也是真心的笑著, 真心的流淚. 因為如果再讓我重來一百遍, 我還是會做同樣的事. 在我心裡面, 我對我說過的, 從來就沒有後悔.
愛是全世界最難學的功課, 卻是全世界最難能可貴的成長和獎賞. 很多人都在面臨相仿的事, 讓我們一起加油. 口裡說認識神的, 就應該活出一個透明誠實敞開生命. 是成功, 是失敗, 是軟弱, 是改變, 是經歷奇蹟, 是喜樂, 是被誤會, 是誤會人, 都要勇於承認, 有一天我們會知道神的深度, 你會看見那些別人有眼看不到有耳聽不到的啟示. 因為我們體會耶穌的心境, 耶穌也體會我們的心境. 生命就該如此, 愛就該如此, 嘗盡人生的喜怒哀樂, 最後蛻變成一個更愛神更愛人的蝴蝶. 同樣一塊石頭, 把它從絆腳石變成墊腳石, 關鍵不在石頭, 在自己願意勇敢的踏出那個別人不敢踏出的一步去選擇用最愛的態度來回應, 即使會心碎滿地.
我發現在經歷這一切後, 我只有更愛我的天父, 和一切按祂形象所生的每一位. 我更有盼望, 更要努力, 活的更有夢想和希望. 受傷是真的, 但深紅色總有一天也會變的很有意義. 耶穌的血也是鮮紅色的, 那時的痛苦, 成就了永恆的榮耀, 去問祂直得嗎? 只要看看祂望著你的眼神, 你就會知道祂不需要開口的答案. 為了你我, 祂再上十字架一百次也願意, 我想, 都是紅色惹的禍, 連上帝的兒子也中計了. 但是祂的紅色卻徹底的改變了我. 人都說人很難改變, 是的沒錯, 這是個事實, 但我卻看到了神蹟, 很多的神蹟. 我們需要留心, 因為那一句本性難移的話, 也常被魔鬼拿來作為攔阻人經歷神的用詞. 沒錯, 改變談何容易, 但那是從人的角度, 在神豈有難成的事? 問題永遠不是神能不能, 而是我們願不願意. 說穿了, 不是這樣嗎?
下次我要撿了一束白玫瑰. 如果說紅色比較浪漫, 那也要兩個人把她一起染紅. 不論是愛情是友情都是如此. 當一切不成正比的時候, 都不會持久的, 也是不能勉強不能怪誰. 只有最後的溫柔, 之後就該說掰掰了. 白甘蔗之戀已全劇終. 始於愛, 終於愛, 一切都是因為很深很深的紅色. 如果真的要怪, 就怪紅色吧, 我很慶幸, 我沒有遺憾, 只有滿滿的感謝.
熱情是紅色的, 玫瑰是紅色的, 口紅是紅色的, 鮮血是紅色的, 愛是紅色的, 都是紅色的, 很深很深的紅色.
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獻給這位朋友, 你有我很深很深的紅色.

May 1, '08
Detroit achieved number one in the league again. Detroit sweeps long-time rival Colorado in 4 straight. That's my baby!!! Detroit will always be my fave!!!
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明年畢業後
大概就是我Orange Days結束的日子
我的橙色歲月
和我的長假一樣, 我永遠都忘不了
之後何去何從, 還不知道
我的下一章節
需要很充分的準備
微笑祝福還是真的, 把真的微笑祝福全都給出去
猴媽說Yes
沒有淚水的歡笑不夠完全不夠燦爛, 沒有歡笑的眼淚太自私太自憐
這就是橘子的味道, 酸酸甜甜, 只為著一個目的.
因為愛祢, 因為愛你, 因為愛妳.
生命的意義就在於犧牲的愛, 成就救恩的偉大之愛.
這是最絕對最終極的真理.
爸比, 我從來就沒有忘記那個最初的夢.
「神愛世人」 (約3:16)
^_^
May 2, '08
可惡這輩子沒時間玩太多音樂  __/ !!
我到天堂後一定要搞個band
呵呵, 不信哦, 到時候等著看!!
嘻嘻!!! 你以為天上的音樂都是錄音撥放的嗎??
大家住的房子都是自動有的嗎? 以利亞和摩西幾千年後還來到地球上還有工作哦
天堂其實和很多人想像的不一樣, 很不一樣 (因為都沒好好讀聖經)
不是只有白雲, 豎琴, 還有邱比特和他的小弓箭與翅膀
那個比較像是衛生紙或是嬰兒用品的廣告
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謝謝你所有的鼓勵禱告還有很棒很棒的見證. 來吧來吧, 一位叫約書亞, 一位叫迦勒, 要親自的腳踏迦南美地親眼看見, 在這個小小的城市裡, 留下神拜訪人間的腳印, 叫做神蹟. I believe!! We believe!!!!
May 3, '08
呵呵, 今天小組聚餐很快樂.
其實快樂誰也不能奪去, 只有自己.
: )
May 4, '08
橙色歲月上半場已經過了, 中場休息. 祂說的"Sign"會出現, 即使我現在還不是很確定到底是什麼意思. 我知道的是, 下半場是關鍵, 然後迎接最終話. Orange Days將會有美麗的結束.
May 6, '08
今天在Richmond看到一個人讓我差點以為我看見了張韶涵. 但應該不是吧, 雖然她前陣子有來溫哥華, 但已經回去了. 她用真材實料的歌唱和演技, 打出自己一片美麗的天空. 我覺得她很可愛, 有些的漂亮是外表的樣子永遠無法比的上的.
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我只想要簡簡單單的.
May 9, '08
全部都是這個字害的
愛
讓我又哭又笑
都沒人在乎  我還在乎
就算全世界都沒人在乎  我還是會在乎
很在乎
只要一個小小的角落就好
小小的
May 10, '08
"Gyabon," or "gyabo," or "gyafun," and also "mukya," are funny sounds that Nodame makes as expressions of surprise, anger, and excitement. Hehehe... "gyabon"!!!!  ^.^
May 16, '08
Nodame Special好笑又好有意義. 有些人天生有很好的資質, 卻從來沒有碰過好老師. 這也是為什麼猴媽要更努力, 有一天讓沒有機會的人, 看見神創造他們的目的, 每個人都有他的舞台, 只是他需要去發現, 去好好練習, 謙卑受教的學習. 這些人需要最多的卻是鼓勵, 真誠的鼓勵和肯定.
我發現... Nodame長的其實有點像王菲耶... 嘻嘻!!
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鼬是幕後的大好人, 即使在地獄裡, 他也是選擇保護了唯一留下的弟弟. 佐助是大笨蛋, 超級大baga!!!
今天有夏天的陽光, 放晴的感覺多麼好, 向著我的夢想前進. 這個暑假猴媽要過的最充實!!  = )
May 17, '08
全都是為了你們好
所以我扮白臉也扮黑臉
有時太年輕你們不懂
有時沒受過真正的苦你們不懂
有時不曉得什麼才是真正的祝福和損失你們不懂
不要做井底之蛙
沒見過九十分不要覺得自己五六十分及格很了不起
要謙卑  要破碎  老我要死透  才能被神使用
希望許多年後的某一天
你們終會了
你們會長大  會變的真正成熟
那時記得我是黑臉也沒有關係
黑臉猴媽也會對你們感到無比的驕傲
May 18, '08
我為著一句話而活著
一句真心的話
若是沒有那句話
我只是存在著  並沒有活著
行尸走肉  比死了還難過
那句話就是「我愛你」
真心真心的對我說
我為著見你一面而呼吸著
只要一面就夠了  雖然會變的很貪心
所以當上帝對我說「我愛你」的那一刻
我活了
我可以為了那一句話
好努力好努力我一輩子七八十年
要我做什麼都沒關係
只要那一句話在
我什麼都願意
當我聽不到那一句話
我的世界都毀了
我死了
心碎了
永遠都拼湊不起來了
這就是為什麼我可以每天都感謝上帝
即使是我一生最壞最慘的一天
我也可以感謝祢
因為祢永遠愛我
我也永遠愛祢
所以我活了
因著那一句話而復活了
我很容易被滿足
我所需要的只是一句話而已
一句百分之百真心的話
我就可以上天下地
May 19, '08
我以前吃過很多中藥
卻從來沒有吃過這麼超級苦的中藥
比我以前吃過最苦的還要苦
我明白為什麼醫生說很多人沒有毅力堅持吃
好苦, 但我卻正好有心情能一直吃, 一直吃
我要謝謝你
讓我體會你來了承擔了一切
好苦的, 你都有說
換我一個微笑
主啊, 謝謝你
讓我能吃這樣的苦
使我感受到
真正的愛的甜蜜
為別人承擔
為愛而愛
為愛而生
為愛而活
為愛而死
為著這樣的甜蜜
再怎麼苦
我都願意
May 20, '08
可愛的小女孩, 天真不需要懂得的. 跟她講太多她也不了, 小朋友, 只要讓她高興快樂就好. 唱好聽的歌給她聽, 親親她, 牽她的手, 和她約會, 讓小小的心靈裡留下一個美好感覺. 讓人疼愛都來不及的小女孩, 這世界怎麼會有人想要傷害小朋友. 他們難過時, 他們的小天使一定更難過, 希望他們別再難過了. 開心時, 小天使也會露出微笑. 小朋友, 應該是要過的幸幸福福的.
May 21, '08
短短的三十三年半, 祂沒有離開過今巴勒斯坦的邊境, 沒有寫過任何書籍, 沒有親手建立什麼偉大的組織帝國, 但祂卻拯救了全世界. 祂唯一留下的是一群被他深深觸摸過的人, 最常和祂在一起的不過十二個加上一個叛徒. 但兩千年後的今天祂卻改變了成千上萬的生命並依然在改變. 這是當愛純淨時的力量. 祂對你的愛一直都在, 無論環境如何變遷, 即使你沒在看沒在聽, 看不見聽不見, 甚至你討厭祂誤會祂, 祂從來就沒有愛你少一點, 從來沒有. 愛不就該如此. 祂的名字叫耶穌.
這就是神對愛的定義:「主為我們捨命, 我們從此就知道何為愛. 我們也當為弟兄捨命」(約一3:16)
May 22, '08
五月天的小太陽  五月天的知足
五月天的天使  五月天最重要的小事
五月天的溫柔  五月之戀
每個五月天只有滿滿的祝福
再見2008五月天
我好謝謝五月天給我的一切
我會牢牢記住  一輩子的
Love is like that
May 23, '08
五月天就要放五月天的歌!! 上次唱了很多五月天的歌, 包括這首, 而且不是孫燕姿的版本哦. 連朋友都說我有突破了, 好高興. 過去的經驗很棒, 還是喜歡可愛和抒情的歌, 但我不會停止學習, 不會停止嘗試新的體驗和冒險. 這世上沒有什麼低谷是上帝不能帶我們走過的, 每天都可以是新鮮的第一天!!
「你說活在明天　活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我說我懂了　會不會太快
未來　第一天要展開」
「第一天　我存在　第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝　因為你而有真實感
第一天　我存在　第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻
第一天的純真色彩它總是
永遠　那麼　燦爛」
在孫燕姿的版本裡, First Day分別是代表貢獻給這首歌的三位歌手/團體: Fir(飛兒有配音, 作曲), st(Stephanie, 孫燕姿的英文名字, 主唱, 作曲), Day(五月天May Day的"Day," 因為歌詞是阿信寫的, 一起作曲). 所以Fir-st Day囉!! ^^
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This Sat will begin 2008's Stanley Cup final, Detroit Vs. Pittsburgh. Detroit has come a long way, my love for 15 years is gonna win the Cup this year...!!! Even after the retirement of their legendary coach Scott Bowman and longest serving captain in NHL Steve Yzerman, they still are playing tops in the league and playoffs, you go girl!!! They were very successful in passing on the baton, the new guys have stepped up BIG TIME. And Chris Osgood came back to play for goalie, and this time he was much more solid and stable than when he was in Detroit during the days of Sergei Fedorov.
Good teams and churches will pass it on, the numbers aren't the most important thing, but discipleship must take priority over evangelism. Jesus spent most of His time developing the 12. When he left, he left no books or structured organization, but He passed it on successfully. Hence, what is true success in the ministry in God's eyes? It's faithfully passing it on, because from eternity's perspective, the influence and impact will be genuine, they will last, they will multiply in time. Just like Jesus through the 12 apostles and other believers in time shook the entire known world in the Roman Empire, and this faith is still growing today after 2,000 years have gone by. Jesus Himself did not get to see this while He was on earth, but He was successful, 100% successful. Churches, ministers and Christians today are so absorbed in numbers, fancy programs and methodologies, and subtle popularity and recognition, they may be sincere in their approach, but this is all viewing things and success from the temporary earthly perspective. But God's method has always been people. People are what He used. When Jesus gave the Great Commission in Matt 28, He especially emphasized to "make disciples," hence, the early church passed it on faithfully, the numbers and waves of revivals are just the natural by-product of sticking to Jesus' principles engraved in the Word of God--the Bible.
This principle works, regardless in the world, business, sports, or the Kingdom of God, because it originated from God, if only churches will allow their eyes to be opened and see. Quality will always precede quantity. So instead of always focusing on methods and programs and things like these, prayers, the meditation of the Word of God, worship, spiritual experiences in the Holy Spirit should be emphasized, because they are the ingredients to a close personal walk with God. Paul likened the Church to be a human anatomy. When symptoms arise, true restoration will not just treat the outward signs of illnesses, they've got to start from the core and the real causes of ailments and viewing the entire body as one inter-connected organism and giving it the overall health, and not just treating parts here and there. The Body of Christ will also save a lot of frustration by discerning the Will and timing of God, just doing the things God told us to do, don't do the things God didn't tell us to do, nothing more, nothing less, be devotedly faithful in the Will of God is still what God looks at.
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在和佐助的激烈戰鬥中, 鼬還達成了兩個目的: 1. 把佐助體內的大蛇丸殺了和解放了跟他幾乎一輩子的咒印. 2. 殺了最親愛的人就會讓佐助的萬花筒寫輪眼終於開起, 還給了他天照.
我想佐助的哥哥是愛他太深太濃
對那個傻瓜而言, 他的生命比村子還重要
佐助以為他的寫輪眼能看穿一切
卻看不穿鼬為他付出的犧牲
偉大的忍者, 需要的不僅是偉大的忍術
更需要偉大的情操, 偉大的愛
鼬選擇讓自己死, 給了佐助自由, 生命
飛翔吧
請記得這生命偉大的真理就是不要自私的為自己而活
May 24, '08
今天和媽和老姊去Richmond吃飯. 餐廳有一個服務生, 長的有些像徐若瑄, 結果姊說有點像張韶涵, 我突然想起韶涵小公主的妹妹還在溫哥華. 還有點像耶, 但不是, 因為以前朋友帶我去她妹打工的地方結果她已經不在那工作了. 他說看到她一定不會認錯, 姊妹長的超像. 不過我還是只喜歡韶涵本人, 哈哈, 上次回台灣都沒機會見到她... >< 失憶不錯聽, 表現出她的深厚唱功!!
May 25, '08
「問世間, 情為何物, 直教生死相許」 -- 《女魔頭李莫愁--神雕俠侶》
今天才知道原來這句話是神雕俠侶裡面的, 而且是反派人物女魔頭李莫愁說的.
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May 25, '08
在Facebook為我的「遺失的美好（一）──尋找遺失的美好」網誌的備註:
這個是兩年多前寫的, 背景是生病不太能講話的那段日子. 現在再看一遍, 感觸很深, 遺失的美好雖然還是沒找到, 但這個真實的故事並還沒有結束. 一個為神而活的生命, 真的像是一齣戲. 就像約瑟從來沒有想過17歲被弟兄賣去埃及的悲劇, 30歲時居然成了以後拯救他全家族的關鍵. 也許他更沒有想到, 在一千多年後耶穌來後, 他的生命居然成了一個基督生平的預像(type). 有多奇妙呢, 看看已下列表就知道, 神真是一為最完美最浪漫的導演.
約瑟的一生事績如何是基督一生的預像. 「預像」就是預先先知性的表現出基督將會經歷的事, 前者(約瑟)遭遇的事預表了後者(基督)將會實際經歷的事, 而兩人卻相隔了一千多年以上. 約瑟不是舊約裡唯一基督的預像(其他如大衛也是一個非常神奇的預像), 但卻是一個聖經裡其中最感人的一個真實故事之一.
約瑟: 牧養父的羊(創37:2); 耶穌: (約10:11)
約瑟: 父愛他(創37:3); 耶穌: (約3:35-36)
約瑟: 兄弟恨他(創37:4,5); 耶穌: (約15:18-25)
約瑟: 他的權柄被否定(創37:8); 耶穌: (路5:24)
約瑟: 父送他到兄弟處(創37:13,14); 耶穌: (約一4:9)
約瑟: 兄弟合謀殺他(創37:18); 耶穌: (約11:47-53)
約瑟: 用銀子被出賣(創37:28); 耶穌: (太26:14-16)
約瑟: 被誘惑(創39:7); 耶穌: (太4:1-13)
約瑟: 被噬告(創39:16-18); 耶穌: (太26:59-68)
約瑟: 本身沒有罪--無觸犯法律的罪(創40:15); 耶穌: (林後5:21)
約瑟: 兩個犯人(一個得救,一個掉命)(創40:2,3); 耶穌: (路23:32-43)
約瑟: 寬恕害他的人(創45:1-15); 耶穌: (路23:34)
約瑟: 苦難後得榮耀(創41:41-43); 耶穌: (腓2:9-11)
約瑟: 權柄歸於他(創41:44); 耶穌: (約14:6)
約瑟: 人應順服他(創41:55); 耶穌: (來5:9)
約瑟: 他的名叫救世主(創41:45); 耶穌: (彼後1:1)
約瑟: 他叫人脫離困境(罪的捆綁)(創45:19); 耶穌: (羅8:2)
約瑟: 得救是靠接受主(創45:18); 耶穌: (羅10:9,10)
這個表沒提的是, 約瑟三十歲作全埃及宰相(創41:46)也呼應了耶穌三十歲開始正式出來傳道(路3:23). 大衛三十歲開始作王也都不是個巧合(撒下5:4).
好好的為主而活, 你我的生命都可以很感人的, 絕對不會是只有短短七八十年的吃喝拉撒睡然後就死翹翹. 為愛祂而活, 我們的故事會存到永遠, 是天堂的真實故事. 原來浪漫的故事, 不是只有電視劇上才看的到的, 而神以編織了最動人的故事, 你只需要去尋求祂帶你來地球走這一遭的目的, 祂在你生命中是有一個具體的計畫的(弗1).
May 27, '08
上帝總是很寶貴著我們的眼淚: "求你把我眼淚裝在你的皮袋裡, 這不都記在你冊子上麼" (詩56:8); "神如此說... 我看見了你的眼淚" (王下20:5); "神要擦去他們一切的眼淚" (啟21:4); "但這女人用眼淚溼了我的腳" (路7:44); "耶穌哭了" (約11:35--聖經最短的一節經文).
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選擇
人總是在不停的作選擇
選擇不作任何選擇也是一種選擇
所以神是公平的
祂審判我們的時候因為是我們自己的選擇
所以我們要付責任, 是獎賞是可惜都是我們曾經的決定
有容易的選擇, 有困難的選擇, 有心如刀割的選擇
但我們還是必須做個選擇
所以我選擇
選擇忘記背後努力面前的向前走
我知道總有人會珍惜這顆心的
不要讓過去決定未來
所以我知道這個選擇是對的
勇敢的面對現實, 展開新的未來, 前方光芒無限
還有人在微笑著等待我
May 28, '08
Stanley Cup final Detroit Vs. Pittsburgh game three today. Don't you love it when you have been cheering for a team since the early days when it's not doing so well and seeing it climbing up to the tops and even number one? Instead of liking a team because it's already tops, it just feels awesome to have loved a team when it wasn't number one, but you kept on believing, supporting, and encouraging for what it is and not what it has accomplished.
May 29, '08
猴媽對電視劇電影的歌曲總是特別有感覺, 因為有著故事作背景. 還記得這首歌是大二的時候第一次聽到(好久了...@@), 那時的意境很深刻, 到現在我都還很喜歡這首飛的理由. 林憶蓮也不知道有什麼魅力, 很喜歡她. 她到底是單眼皮還是雙眼皮啊, 都看不出來, 哈哈. 突然發現林憶蓮有點像我最後一個小提琴老師年輕時候的樣子耶, 啊哈哈, 感覺很奇特的好笑!! ^.^
人間四月天裡的那三個女主角真實世界裡都不錯. 但在戲裡元配劉若英走觀念和打扮都很老派傳統, 伊能靜則是走頹廢紅塵女路線, 周迅(林徽音)的話猴媽好喜歡, 也說不上來, 就是很不一樣的感覺, 特別是她微笑的時候. 其實周迅有幾個角度看起來居然還有點像韶涵小公主的, 啊哈哈. 還記得我阿媽說我小時後長的有點像徐志摩, 那時候都不知道他是誰, 徐什麼?? 還有最前面那首詩就是他寫的再別康橋, 我看小摩從來就沒有忘記徽音吧, 才會那麼難過. 還有猴媽有一天想去劍橋看看玩玩喔!!
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2010五月二十九日是白痴打賭的期限, 啊哈哈, 很幼稚.  =P
應該是我請客啦!!!!!
May 31, '08
換換愛裡王傳ㄧ真的演的很棒唷. 感謝很多好友的陪伴鼓勵, 你們總是讓我看見更遼闊的世界, 謝謝你們, 我愛你們!! 如果要徹底要盡情的去冒險, 就不能還是被綁手綁腳的喔, 我要擁抱更精采的明天, 會珍惜我的期待. 還有... 我的*Hello Kittar要換新弦了, 還有新的picks, 下禮拜去買!! ^^

白甘蔗之戀原聲帶曲目
1. 片頭主題曲: 愛轉角 (羅志祥) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u30KZqrkEGw
2. 片尾主題曲: 給我你的愛 (Tank) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=msOsxQ0m3j0
3. 不想懂得 (張韶涵) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiErGV67GEM
4. 聽不到 (五月天版) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qquKa6ibZGs
5. 缺氧 (楊丞琳) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzMvbMH_j84
6. 好眼淚壞眼淚 (徐若瑄) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ELqyhv4iV9Y
7. 溫柔--還你自由版 (五月天) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBFPgi0PKFA
8. 知足 (五月天) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUhpeQ7Z1xo
9. 小情歌 (蘇打綠) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKmhH0sI0Ko
10. 無與倫比的美麗 (蘇打綠) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDeus3TraM0
11. 可惜不是你 (梁靜茹) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vzZyj-Jgpg
12. 崇拜 (梁靜茹) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9j93UbTlrKk
13. 背影 (林宥嘉) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mp0QBZ6s5cY
14. 愛來過 (S.H.E) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPnuXHfTyYo
15. 獨唱情歌 (Tank + Selina) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dcz_8TT-FOo
16. 愛我好嗎 (卓文萱) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeEb2i_e0IU
17. 失憶 (張韶涵) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MctnQN1wKEw
18. 不作你的朋友 (S.H.E) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dcz_8TT-FOo
19. Lydia (F.I.R) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bX57iOqoYgs
20. 愛過 (F.I.R) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9pSo1teMBU
* 如果附加歌曲: 如果的事 (張韶涵 + 范瑋琪) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61JA_0sTDDA

June 8, 2008
The Presence of Jesus Christ (With Notes on the Five Spiritual Senses)
Introduction:
It is necessary to establish the fact that just as we have the natural five senses of sight, hearing, touch, smell, taste, we as spiritual beings also have five spiritual senses of spiritual sight, spiritual hearing, spiritual touch, spiritual smell, and spiritual touch (Heb 5:14). God being Spirit can see and hear etc., we as spirits created in the image of God certainly have spiritual senses as well (Gen 1:27). Angels are spirit beings who can definitely sense the worlds around them with their senses, whether they are God's good angels or the fallen angels (Matt 24:31; 25:41). Demons as spirits also still have their spiritual senses fully intact and functional (Matt 8:29). When we enter into the Spiritual World, our physical bodies are left on the earth to rot, but surely we will still be able to see and hear in Heaven (Matt 17:3). In the story of the rich man and Lazarus in Luke 16 that Jesus told, He described what happened to them after their earthly lives have ended and they entered into the Spiritual Realm in Hades (note however that this was pre-resurrection, so saints who passed away now do not go into the good part of Hades but straight to the heavenly realms--Matt 27:50-53). Both the rich man and Lazarus could still see, hear, touch, smell, and taste. In fact, their senses were even acuter in the spiritual dimension (Luke 16:24). Paul sometimes call our spirits the "inner man" (Eph 3:16), or the "inward man" (Rom 7:22; 2 Cor 4:16), or simply talk about us being "spirits" plainly (Rom 1:9). Technically, we don't just have spirits, but we are spirits, that have a soul, and live in a physical body (1 Thess 5:23; Heb 4:12). That is why Paul and Peter referred to our physical body as only a "tent" in which we, as spirits, take residence in (2 Cor 5:1, 4; 2 Pet 1:13-14). Having established this truth from the Scriptures, the reason why many cannot seem to function in their spiritual senses is because their spirits are not well-trained. All Christians, even non-Christians, can tap in the inherent ability of the five spiritual senses, but they need to be developed as just babies need to develop their natural five senses in the process of growing. However, this spiritual growth is not automatic, it can only be cultivated through prayer, meditation of the Word, worship, and impartation from other men and women of God. This is why the author of Hebrews, through the Holy Spirit, stated and exhorted believers that "solid food belongs to those who are of full age, that is, those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil" (Heb 5:14). The context and common biblical interpretation rule tell us that the "senses" here is definitely not referring to the natural five senses but the spiritual five senses. In fact, we only derive our natural five senses from our five spiritual senses--the spiritual always comes first before the physical (Heb 11:3; also e.g. God is Spirit and He can see, hear and smell etc., although we understand His "senses" are much different and greater than ours). Furthermore, just as many have a better natural sense such as sight over the other senses, the quality of our spiritual senses also differ from person to person in the will of God, but all senses can be developed. Some may have better spiritual sight, for some, it may be spiritual hearing. It is just different, neither sense is considered better than the other. For those who function easier with their spiritual eyesight, they tend to see visions and dream dreams. Those who hear spiritually more often, they tend to "know" or "hear" or "pick up" the voice or leading of the Lord and they don't necessarily see all the various types and categories of visions (but all Christians can develop all the spiritual senses).
Lastly, the particular gift of discerning of spirits in 1 Cor 12:10 is a gift of the Holy Spirit, and not synonymous with the common ability of our spiritual senses to sense the Spiritual World. The gift of discerning of spirits only works as the Spirit wills, just like all the other nine gifts of the Spirit (1 Cor 12:11). However, we can always train our spiritual senses and this inherent spiritual quality is not restricted to some but all believers who exercise their spiritual senses. It's just like all can pray and believe for healing, but not all have the definite gifts of healings of the Spirit, which is something that was foreordained by God and not us (1 Cor 12:9, 11). The word "discerning" in the gift of discerning of spirits mean to "discern" into the Spiritual World. Those who function in this particular gift also "discern" differently. Some with their spiritual sight, some with hearing, some with other senses. The difference between this gift working and the normal exercise of our spiritual senses is in the different levels of anointing and authority. A detailed sharing on this is not the scope of this article, but a general understanding is presented here to differentiate them to help us not be confused with questions such as whether only some can sense the Spirit World. The answer is simply everyone can. The more we develop them through prayers, meditation of His Word, worship, we'll be able to better discern spiritually. The only caution is we always need confirmations and not presume that something we sense is accurate or real. We check by the Word and time. Sometimes it could be just our heads, that would be more in the realm of soul and natural senses and not spiritual sensing. The balance is believe what the Scripture teaches and step out by faith, but at the same time keep oneself in check by God's Word, time, and a heart that is teachable and humble. The purpose of all sharing and experiences is, of course, love.
Testimony:
Yesterday (June 7, '08) during our cell group meeting, as we were worshiping and praying away, we sensed strongly the presence of Jesus Christ in our midst. Prior to our worship, our discussion and fellowship were carried out in a very loving and united way. There was a deep oneness and genuine care we had for each other as we freely shared our thoughts and sought God earnestly and honestly. During the worship and prayer, I sensed (although I see visions sometimes, I tend to hear spiritually more often) a presence of Jesus, that He was also in the room, standing on the other end of the table from us. As we continued on praying and waiting on Him, I sensed that He walked closer to us and finally He laid His hands on each of us. It was a very tangible experience. After our prayer, I didn't mention this particularly for reasons. However, one of the brothers started sharing before I said anything on what I sensed, that he felt strongly that Jesus was in the room and laying hands on each of us during our prayer time. He said he "saw" (remember the spiritual seeing I talked about in the intro) Jesus doing all these ministering unto us. This was a great confirmation to my heart, as I haven't shared anything and, in fact, wasn't planning to do so. So I also shared what I sensed very tangibly the presence of Jesus, although I didn't see, but I just "know" and "felt" (as described above, I tend to hear spiritually more often). But it was so real just like you could feel the presence of a person walking closer even though you can't see him or her. Then another of our brothers said that he also "saw" Jesus when we were praying and waiting on Him in our midst. He said he didn't see His face clearly, but a figure and a sense of His manifest presence. Now this was very encouraging and interesting. There was a particular reason why this presence was especially manifested for the people present there. The interesting thing is how we all experienced the very presence of our precious Lord but in a different way. It was interesting how each of us described the exactly same event but from different angles. This was a special experience that we needed for His purposes and our encouragement.
Normally, we should believe by faith that Jesus is in us and with us all the time (Matt 18:20). We should walk by faith and not by (natural) sight, meaning not depending on our bodily and emotional feelings and external circumstances, but purely on the Word of God where our faith comes from (2 Cor 5:7; Rom 10:17). However, sometimes God does allow us to have special experiences when the presence of Christ was especially manifested for His purposes. Stephen on the verge of dying saw the Lord Jesus Christ with his spiritual eyes (Acts 7:56). Saul, when on the road to Damascus, heard with his spiritual ears the Lord Jesus Christ speaking to him (Acts 9). On the other hand, after this dramatic experience, Paul did not go on only depending on similar type of experiences, but he grounded and rooted himself in the Word of God and the love of God, where all spiritual experiences are interpreted and measured against.
This little touching incident showed us that Jesus is indeed with us (and not just an old Christian cliche) whether we see Him or not (Matt 28:20). He knows all our troubles and heartaches. He is with us even right now. The more we tune and fill our hearts with His love and surrender ourselves completely to His Will, the more we will be able to sense His presence because "blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God" (Matt 5:8). He loves you, although I or any other person may not know or know fully the troubles that you go through, please give all your burden to Jesus. In God there is always a way, if only we can see. If only we continue to choose to love, choose to forgive, choose to bless, choose to be honest and open, choose to ask for forgiveness, choose to endeavor as much as we know how to the purpose of God for our lives, He will make our hearts glad once again. I was also reminded that the most precious thing in the Kingdom of God is not gifts, recognition or outward ministry results, but the companionship and closeness of our Lord. It breaks one's heart utterly when you love someone so dearly but cannot be with that person. On the other end, it's such a bliss when you can be with the person who loves you the most--and we know that Jesus is and will always be with us, He will never forsake nor forget us--never (Heb 13:5; Is 49:15). The very reason that Father God sent Jesus was so that He and us His children can be together intimately once again forever. For this reason, no matter what hardship or misunderstanding we face today, the tremendous comfort and sweetness of His presence and grace will always be able to carry us on, with songs of faith, hope, and love. You are loved and watched over by Him. He is cheering you on and always so near. Take heart and be encouraged!!  ^__^
"For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them" (Jesus Christ--Matt 18:20)
"Then, behold, the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom; and the earth quaked, and the rocks were split" (Matt 27:51).
"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me" (Ps 23:4).
With His Love and Grace (lots and lots),
George   = )

The Beauty of the Lord's Voice -- by Pastor Peter Tan
Dear Beloved
The Voice of the Lord is a spiritual voice and can only be receive by our spirit beings. Only spirit can contact Spirit, only soul can contact soul, and only body can contact body. Before the fall, Adam and Eve must have delighted in hearing the voice of God in the Garden but immediately after the fall the same voice that has brought joy and comfort, now brought him fear (Genesis 3:8,10). The Hebrew word 'voice' is the word 'qol' which sometimes has been translated 'sound.' It is possible to hear a sound without necessarily hearing and understanding the voice (Of course, if it is a spiritual sound, only spiritual ears can hear although to the hearer it might sound as if it is just a natural noise).
When Jesus was baptized in water, there was a voice from God that declared Him as His beloved Son but most likely only John saw vision and heard the voice of God (Luke 3:22; John 1:32-33). When a voice answered Jesus as He prayed, some people near Him heard it as a thunder, others heard something without understanding and said that an angel had spoken (John 12:28-29). When Paul was down under a vision on the road to Damascus, He heard the voice and instruction of the Lord but all those around him heard a voice (sound) but did not understand anything (Acts 9:7; 22:9). All these events were supernatural events which affected the surrounding people differently depending on their own spiritual development in God.
1.       We are promised the leading of the Holy Spirit everyday (John 14:17-18,26)
The leading of the Holy Spirit in our lives are always there every day. It is never a question as to whether He has spoken but rather whether we can hear and understand Him. Jesus said that His sheep hear His voice (John 10:27). And the Holy Spirit has come to lead us and to guide us into all truth (John 16:13). The anointing that God has given to all believers abides in us, teaching us all things (1 John 2:27). Sometimes we don't understand because we are not tuned to the area to hear what is being communicated. For example, an experienced mother knows what a child's need is and the more experience they are, the more they can differentiate between the whimper for comfort, the cry for nourishment, and the cry of pain and discomfort. An animal lover can differentiate the needs of an animal by its posture, sounds and even eyes. God our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ, His angels and the Holy Spirit are constantly sending us little leadings of the Holy Spirit that we must tune in to everyday.
 
2.       The promptings, signals and leadings of the Spirit and His angels are not given in a human language. We might in the end hear it in human language but they are given Spirit to spirit (1 Corinthians 2:10-11). For example, when God's voice vibrate in the spiritual realm and is telling a group of His people not to be afraid;
some of them will not hear anything but purely feel a sense of comfort,
some will sense the remembrance of an event in which they had taken great comfort and faith,
some will hear within their inner mind, words of comfort in their own vocabulary (Be not afraid or Be strong, Fear not, I am with you, I am here, you are not alone, etc.),
some will suddenly remember varying Scriptures telling them not to be afraid (Matthew 28:20 – Lo, I am with you; Psalm 23:4 - Though you walk through the shadow of death, you will fear not evil for I am with you; Psalm 91 – He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High, shall abide under His shadow, etc.
Some may ask, why is it that the same voice of comfort produces such different interpretations? This is because we all hear the same voice of comfort in our spirits but our souls and minds translate it into something which we can understand. Understanding this principle of Spirit to spirit communication is important, for it is the key to developing our relationship with God:
 
a.       We all do not perceive exactly in the same way. No one thinks exactly the same way. We all are unique and although we understand and acknowledge that there is Absolute Truth and Reality outside of ourselves, and the principles of those Truths, we all perceive it in our own unique way. Two plus two equals four but a baker will see it as two buns times two makes four buns, an animal lover may see it as two cats plus two cats make four cats, and astronomer may see it as two stars plus two stars makes four, a mathematician might see it as two plus two using a base of ten makes four, etc. We all add our perception to what is being perceived.
b.      We are limited by our ability to stretch our perception. Humans normally never hear sound vibrations higher than 20,000 vibrations a second but dogs can. Our inner ear does not have the ability to perceive it. Perception and understand is always a construct from the blocks of knowledge that we already have to build new knowledge. For example, try explaining what snow is to someone who has never seen snow. You would have to use things within the person's life and knowledge to construct new knowledge. You might use coconut meat to illustrate the colour of snow. You might use cold water to illustrate the coldness of snow. You might use sand to illustrate the brittleness of snow, etc. But until you are either able to bring the actual snow itself to the person or a picture of it, there are some limits to what you can communicate. If you had a block of ice, you could chip the block of ice into tiny bits and then fluff it out 'like snow' to convey to the person what snow is like. Yet there are things that the person can only imagine but not experience, for example, the picture of snow covered trees twinkling in the moonlight with snow capped mountains behind them, the joys of building a snowman or making angel shapes in the snow, the beauty of white fluffy snowflakes falling from the sky, etc.  When God speaks to us, our spirits hear Him but we are always limited by the extent of the blocks of knowledge within us to construct the gist or sum of what He is trying to say. That is why the more we grow, the more we can grow; and the more we experience, the more we can experience. Ask, seek and knock, and it will open the door for more of God (Matthew 7:7). That is why we need to read the Bible, for they contain the recorded experiences of other people whom God has met and spoken with; and as you understand how and why God speaks to them, you will understand how and why God speaks to us.
c.       Our soul limits how much we can know of God by limiting our ability to translate the receptions in our spirit to our conscious mind and understanding. For this reason, we need to renew the soul and the mind though the Word of God (Romans 12:1-2; 1 Peter 1:22). Our soul consists of our mind, our emotions and our will. There are some things which the mind cannot grasp but the emotions can; there are some things which the emotion cannot grasp but the mind can; and there are some things which is completely beyond the emotion and the mind but if we follow our will in the right path, our emotions and our minds with exposure and time will rise to the occasion and be able to fell and know (with training and growth). We learn to count before we learn to multiply and we learn to multiply before we do calculus. We learn to make friends and we learn what friendship love is, we learn to love our families and we learn what family love is; we experienced companionship, joys, sorrows, laughter and tears through life – and finally gain the capacity to enlarge ourselves in our abilities to love and to care for others.
Remember that in every situation you are in, the grace of God has already provided you an answer and a path through (1 Corinthians 10:13). Remember that every situation is an opportunity to learn and grow (Romans 8:28). Remember that there are some areas in life where you have full freedom of choice and some areas where the choice has already been made for you by predecessors or by circumstances but God is always there to show you the right path if your heart is right (Proverbs 3:5, 6).
Understand and learn to interpret every perception in your spirit man, every impression in your heart, every shade of your dream life, every tug of your emotion, every flicker of thought; for within them contains the translation of the Spiritual voice of God arising in your soul consciousness. Be led by the Spirit and you shall indeed be sons and daughters of God (Romans 8:14). A miss is as good as a mile, so don't miss what God is saying to you today and every day.
In Christ's love
Ps Peter Tan

May 17, 2008
For every move and stirring of God, we should always examine it in light of the principles of His Word, the specific leadings of His Spirit, and also taking into account the lessons we can learn from 2,000 years of church history, especially revival history. The recent Florida Lakeland revival (if one calls it a "revival") deserves a more balanced view. J. Lee Grady has provided a balanced view as pasted below that is generally right on target.
I have personally attended Todd Bentley's meetings and have come in touch with many of his materials (sermons and messages) and can confirm some of the things Grady mentioned are worthy of attention and spiritual discernment. In general, I do not doubt the validity of the salvation and miracles as a result of the meetings, and the tremendous passion, zeal, and sincerity that Todd has for the Lord. It is a Christian quality lacking in many parts in the Body of Christ today. This holy passion and desire is an example in dire need to be followed and practiced by churches, ministers, and believers. I also believe that the spiritual encounters that Todd has are bona fide, however, his interpretation and application of them probably need to be more grounded in the Word of God and the character of His love for edification. There is nothing wrong with communing with angels, for people of God have talked with angels throughout the Bible (e.g. Gabriel talked with Zacharias, Mary, and Daniel; the company of angels told the shepherds in the wilderness to look for Jesus etc.). But it is altogether a different thing than actively seeking guidance, communication, and revelation from angels directly, as all attention should be on God, Jesus Christ, and not on the angelic messengers. All those who have truly encountered and communed with angels will know that they do not want humans to shift their attention away from Jesus to them. It is true that angelic beings are the primary means in which God's work on earth are carried out under the guidance of the Holy Spirit, including delivering revelation and truth. Therefore, it is a balanced view, mannerism, and the correct methods and teachings that we need in order to not overly exaggerate and shun extremities. Past church revival history has taught us this very well.
The vision I had last night was concerning Todd and the current situation. I saw Todd sitting in a person's (who I know in reality) car backseat, Someone (who I also know in reality) was sitting beside the driver's seat, no one was driving. The car was going out of the garage (somehow without a driver), and Todd wanted to drive and take control. But he seemed without a proper car license, or at least without the proper car insurance coverage and the owner's permission since he was driving someone else's car. The person beside the driver's seat halted him because Todd was very eager to take the wheels that did not belong to him nor was he given allowance.
One main message of this vision is that he needs to be careful not to step over the boundary that he was not predestined to. He is called to be a mighty evangelist, but definitely not a teacher or pastor (Eph 4:11). If you remember the case with William Branham well, he was such an anointed prophet and evangelist, but when he wanted to become a fivefold teacher, he fell into errors and false doctrines. Soon his life and ministry were dissolved. Here is some discretion for all ministers and believers. It is critical to know what you have been called to do, and what you have not been called to function in. Furthermore, there is always an order of the offices if one is called to more than one fivefold ministry. Two persons may both be called as pastors and teachers, but for one, he may be first a teacher, then a pastor, for the other, he may be called firstly to a pastor, and secondly a teacher. Paul was called first as an apostle, evangelist, then teacher. The order may be different for a time in different phases of one's life, nevertheless, one needs to discern and be obedient to stay in the functions and priorities ordained by God. Lastly, this is only talking about gifts and callings measured to a person sovereignly by God before the foundation of the world (of course the responsibilities to grow within that measure is our own and not God's), and not one's spirituality. This is discussed in much more detail in my fourth dream vision on how the Lord does not see as man sees. The greatest is still love demonstrated in a person and not gifts (1 Cor 13:1-8).
In the end, we do appreciate and are thankful to God for Todd, his personal testimony, zeal, devotion, and ministry. The fruit of salvation, healing, deliverance, encouragement from the meetings are awesome and God-glorifying. On the other hand, Christians need to be balanced by sound teaching of the Word (as Paul and the apostles continued to teach the Word before, during, and after revivals in the Book of Acts), otherwise our spiritual experiences will have great potential to cause more damages than benefits. For some Christians, perhaps what they need, on the contrary, are more spiritual experiences and encounters, and not just the mere intellectual knowledge of the Bible. The Holy Spirit is a living God-Person, He is still speaking and working, so are His angels and ministering spirits, thus our faith and relationship with the Lord should not be just a set of doctrines no matter how sound they may be. For this latter group of believers, they need to be open to the ministries of the Holy Spirit in regard to dreams and visions, gifts of the Spirit, the apostolic and prophetic ministry, tongues, divine healing, demonic deliverance, the fivefold ministries, angelic and Spiritual World visitations etc. A balanced teaching and correct methodologies are definitely required to present a sound and practical application of these charismatic truths in the love, humility, and spiritual depth of God. When it comes to the the working of the Word of God and the Spirit of God, it's never an either-or question, or simply throwing the babies out with the bathwater because someone in the past has made serious errors in them, just as we don't throw out the Bible just because someone has misquoted or misinterpreted a certain passage. Let's be balanced Christians, both knowing and walking in the deeper things of God for loving Him and others' sake, just like Jesus.
In His Love,
George
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The Fourth Dream -- The Lord Does Not See as Man Sees (Chinese)
The following article is taken from http://fireinmybones.com/index.php?col=051408 by J. Lee Grady, editor of Charisma.
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Honest Questions About the Lakeland Revival
I support any holy outbreak of revival fervor. But let's be careful to guard ourselves from pride and error.

God is stirring deep spiritual passion in the hearts of the thousands of people who have traveled to Florida during the last month to experience the Lakeland Healing Revival. Since these meetings began in a 700-seat church on April 2, the crowd has moved four times to bigger venues, the fervor has intensified and the news has spread worldwide—thanks to God TV and online broadcasting.

 

Within a few weeks, the bandwagon effect was in full swing. It's safe to say that no outbreak of Pentecostalism in history has gained so much international exposure so quickly as these meetings have.

 

I'm a cheerleader for the charismatic movement, so I rejoiced when I heard the news about revivalist Todd Bentley's extended visit to Ignited Church. It was thrilling to hear the reports of miracles and to watch the crowd grow until a stadium was required to hold everyone.

 

When I visited a service on April 15, I was blessed by Heather Clark's music and the audience's exuberant worship. And I laughed with everyone else as I watched Bentley shout his trademarked "Bam! Bam! Bam!" as he prayed for the sick and flailed his tattooed arms over the crowd. Hey, Jesus didn't pray for people according tothe Pharisees' rulebook, so I'm open to unconventional methods.

 

But I would be dishonest if I told you that I wholeheartedly embraced what I saw in Lakeland. Something disturbed me, but I kept my mouth shut for three weeks while I prayed, got counsel from respected ministry leaders and searched my heart to make sure I was not harboring a religious spirit. The last thing we need today is more mean-spirited heresy hunters blasting other Christians.

 

I am not a heresy hunter, and I support what is happening in Lakeland because I know God uses imperfect people (like me and you) to reach others for Jesus. At the same time, I believe my questions are honest and my concerns are real.

 

My motive is not to criticize Bentley or the pastor who is sponsoring these meetings, Stephen Strader. In September 2002 Charisma featured a seven-page article about Bentley's amazing conversion from drug addiction. I believe Bentley is a sincere brother who wants people to encounter God's presence and power. No doubt this 32-year-old evangelist needs our prayers now more than ever, especially since he has become the focus of international media attention.

 

But as the noise from Lakeland grows louder and its influence spreads, I'm issuing some words of warning that apply to all of us, not just the folks in Lakeland. I hope everyone understands that these cautions are offered in love:

 

1. Beware of strange fire.The name of Jesus is being lifted up in the Lakeland revival, and three people came to the altar for salvation the night I attended. Larger numbers have come to the front of the auditorium to find Christ every night since then.

 

Yet I fear another message is also being preached subtly in Lakeland—a message that cult-watchers would describe as a spiritual counterfeit. Bentley is one of several charismatic ministers who have emphasized angels in the last several years. He has taught about angels who bring financial breakthroughs or revelations, and he sometimes refers to an angel named Emma who supposedly played a role in initiating a prophetic movement in Kansas City in the 1980s. Bentley describes Emma as a woman in a flowing white dress who floats a few feet off the floor.

 

All of us who believe the Bible know that angels are real, and that they work on our behalf to protect us and minister to us. But the apostle Paul, who had encounters with angels himself, issued stern warnings to the Corinthians, the Galatians and the Colossians about angels who preach another gospel or that demand attention. In Colossae, believers were so enamored with angels they had seen in visions that they became "inflated without cause" by spiritual pride (Col. 2:18, NASB). Paul was adamant that preoccupation with angels can lead to serious deception.

 

We need to tread carefully here! We have no business teaching God's people to commune with angels or to seek revelations from them. And if any revival movement—no matter how exciting or passionate—mixes the gospel of Jesus with this strange fire, the results could be devastating. We need to remember that Mormonism was born out of one man's encounter with a dark angel who claimed to speak for God.

 

2. Beware of bizarre manifestations.When the Holy Spirit's power comes on people they may feel weak or even fall. The Spirit's power can also cause people to tremble, shake, laugh or cry. Such manifestations are biblical and we should leave room for them. But where do we draw the line between legitimate experience and fanatical excess?

 

The apostle Paul had to deal with outrageous charismatic manifestations in the Corinthian church. People were acting like raving lunatics—and turning the church in to a free-for-all of unbridled ecstatic behavior. Paul called for discipline and order, and he reminded early Christians that "the spirits of prophets are subject to prophets" (1 Cor. 14:32). In other words, Paul was saying that no one under the influence of the Holy Spirit should act out of control.

 

In many recent charismatic revivals, ministers have allowed people to behave like epileptics on stage—and they have attributed their attention-getting antics to the Holy Spirit. We may think it's all in fun (you know, we're just "acting crazy" for God) but we should be more concerned that such behavior feeds carnality and grieves the Spirit.

 

When exotic manifestations are encouraged, people can actually get a religious high from jerking, vibrating, screaming or acting intoxicated. (I have even been around people who writhed as if in pain, or made sexual noises—thinking this was a legitimate spiritual experience.) But emotional euphoria doesn't guarantee a heart change. The person who is bucking like an untamed bronco in a church service would benefit more from sitting still and reading the Bible for an hour. When we put bizarre behavior on the platform we imply that it is normative. Thus more strange fire is allowed to spread.

 

 3. Beware of hype and exaggeration.Our hearts are crying out today for a genuine move of God. We want the real deal. We've read about the Great Awakenings of the past and we long to see our nation overcome by a wave of repentance. The church is in a backslidden state, and our nation has rebelled against God. We are desperate!

 

In our longing for a holy visitation, however, we must be careful not to call the first faint breeze of the Spirit a full-fledged revival. If we do that, we are setting people up for disappointment when they realize it may not be what we blew it up to be.

 

Some of the language used during the Lakeland Revival has created an almost sideshow atmosphere. People are invited to "Come and get some." Miracles are supposedly "popping like popcorn." Organizers tout it as the greatest revival in history.

 

Such brash statements cheapen what the Holy Spirit is doing—and they do a disservice to our brothers and sisters who are experiencing New Testament-style revival in countries such as Iran, China and India. We have a long way to go before we experience their level of revival. Let's stay humble and broken before the Lord.

 

I am rejoicing over all the reported healings at the Lakeland meetings. Miracles are awesome. Crowds are great. But miracles and crowds alone don't guarantee a revival. Multitudes followed Jesus during His ministry on earth, but many of the people who saw the dead raised or ate food that was supernaturally multiplied later crucified the Son of God.

 

It was the few disciples who followed Jesus after Calvary who ushered in a true revival—one that was bathed in the fear of God, confirmed by signs and wonders, tempered by persecution and evidenced by thousands of conversions, new churches and the transformation of society. We should expect nothing less.

J. Lee Grady is editor of Charisma.
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第四個異夢 -- 耶和華不像人看人
前言:
這是聖靈所啟示第四個關於同一件事的異夢, 一件我本來沒有要刻意去尋求明白的事. 很多事情非常的錯綜複雜, 不是光看外表或是隨便聽信一般流傳的話就能正確看透的. 有時是因為所知不全了解不深, 有時是因為背後有人情利益上的操縱, 往往會誤導許多人對於事情真相的全盤認識和模糊了中心焦點. 還有到底神是如何看待整件事而不是人如何看待才是重點. 只有透過全知又全智的上帝的幫助, 藉著聖經的話語和聖靈的特別啟示才能知道神真正的心意和祂對相關人事物的評估 -- 只有祂的判決才是正確純淨的. 神主動給了這些看見, 為要彰顯祂的觀點和公義. 前三次的異象我有了解大意, 事情也照著所看見的發生了. 但這第四個異夢需要特別的分享說明, 因為帶出了一些重要的信息, 不只單是對於所提相關之事, 更要闡明祂的公正和看事情的角度是如何與人大相徑庭. 從一開始我都是被動的領受, 因為根本沒打算花太多時間在與自己沒有太大關係的人與人之是是非非上. 但神卻要我在會影響很多人的事件上, 必須去注意和勸勉, 即使和我本身沒有什麼直接的關聯.
異象和異夢也有不同類別(type)和型態(form)的區分. 異象可分為三大類別: 最普遍的是內在異象(inner/spiritual vision), 然後在聖經裡比較多人知道的異象則是屬於敞開的異象(open vision), 如天使拯救彼得出監(徒12), 或是封閉的異象(closed vision), 如彼得要去哥尼流家前的魂遊象外(徒10:10). 三種型態則分別是預表性的(allegorical/symbolical), 如但以理夢見預表四個王國的四獸, 那四個獸並不是真正實質的獸, 只是預表性的(但7), 信息性的(direct message), 如保羅看見馬其頓男人請求他去馬其頓幫助他們(徒16:9), 和直接非預表性的(plain), 如保羅看見亞拿尼亞來按手在他身上使他能看見(徒9:12). 異夢都是屬於封閉式的異象, 「封閉」的意思就是看到異象時人肉體的五個感官被「封閉」起來了. 很多時候經歷這種異象時就會像保羅三層天的異象, 很難知道是在「身內」, 靈魂沒離開身體, 還是在「身外」, 靈離開了身體(林後12:2-3). 這第四個異夢的型態則是個信息性的異夢. 在信息性的異夢裡, 是直接與屬靈世界和裡面的靈(如天使, 魔鬼, 人的靈, 耶穌)有直接的相處, 但很多時候這些靈是用預表的型態被看見的. 當神要把屬靈空間(spiritual dimension)的人事物傳達到地球物質的空間(earth dimension)時, 很多時候我們看見的就會需要是預表性的. 但因為是個直接接觸這些人事物的異象, 所以這型態的異象也不是純預表性的, 因為純預表性的並不是實質的接觸, 只是看見了單純的預表畫面. 這第四個異夢很短, 完全不像約翰拔摩島的異象或保羅的三層天異象那樣的長. 等級也不一樣, 平信徒看見的異夢異象(徒2:17), 沒有聖經的絕對權威性, 雖然也是從神來的. 就像平信徒的受感說話(林前14:31)也是神的靈感動的, 但不能與聖經的話畫上等號, 察驗的標準當然是不能違背聖經. 最後要注意不是所有的夢或是頭腦裡看見的圖像都是異夢異象, 異夢異象是神的靈透過人的靈而傳達的, 所以源頭是神, 普通做作的夢則是出於人的魂的(傳5:3). 對於聖經異夢的詳細教導請參最下方相關網誌的「聖經異夢和解夢原則簡介」.
這篇分享不會說明所有異象裡看見的內容及提及的人名. 啟示的目的永遠是愛, 是恩典, 是憐憫, 是造就(林前14:3, 26), 不能用來作為推廣個人利益, 甚至成為屬靈壓迫或操縱的工具誤導群眾, 這樣是非常不合神心意和幼稚的. 就像魔鬼同樣也知道神的話(太4:6), 但牠卻不是神話語的好管家. 事實上, 當任何的分享有不良的動機目的時, 分享者對神最原始的啟示就會開始誤解或誤用, 就像魔鬼亂引用的詩篇91篇來試探著耶穌(太4:6), 即使詩篇91仍然是適用於今天神所感動大有能力的啟示. 再多再大再深的屬靈知識, 若沒有單純的愛, 依然毫無益處, 零零零, 虛空的虛空啊(林前13:1-4).
內容:
這個異夢發生於2008年四月二十三日, 神在這個時間點顯明這個信息有祂的智慧. 我只能大略的描述過程輕描淡寫, 重點是這個啟示的信息, 不要忘記, 從造就, 安慰, 勸勉的角度分享(林前14:3).
第一個景象, 一群人在打籃球, 球場上有很多很多的人, 快要塞到爆, 但他們都繼續的打. 我也在其中. 一開始打的很爛, 但後來卻漸入佳境, 變的打的很好. 不過這整群人只有幾位是我的隊友, 還不到四個人吧, 剩下其他的十幾二十個人都是另一隊的, 但我們並沒有打輸的樣子. 後來有另一群人來了. 他們好像大部分都是老外, 也有黑人. 其中帶頭的是當今一位非常家喻戶曉的黑人明星球員. 他來把原先在打的這群人都通通的強勢趕走. 這位明星球員手裡拿著一桶紅色的油漆, 開始在球場上畫球線, 但卻亂畫. 他開始玩這個紅色的油漆, 在地上亂圖亂畫. 後來我有點要向這個明星球員老大爭理, 因為無緣無故要被趕走, 他又在球場上用紅油漆亂塗鴉, 根本是土匪. 最後我和本來在球場的那群人還是被迫離開了.
離開一會之後, 我突然想說好像有東西忘在球場, 要回去檢查看看. 到了門口卻發現有人看守著, 整個場景居然都不一樣了. 和看守的說明原因後, 他們讓我進去, 好像給我了一個暫時許可證才能進去. 然後他們對我說了幾句話, 關於我第二次來到這裡的意義和其他的解說.
到了裡面我看到神對一些曾活在這個世上的人他們一生的評估和評語, 是一個審判的地方. 出乎絕大部分的人的意料, 非常非常的. 在第一幕球場裡, 人心裡的真正想法動機, 大部分是看不見的. 但在進去第二幕後, 所有每個人的動機, 心裡的思想意念都完全隱藏不了, 即使他們沒有說出, 即使他們想要掩蓋. 在這第二幕裡的地方, 所有的一切都是透明的, 我在那也都感受的到. 在裡面我還遇見一位小女孩, 她也知道那裡所發生的一切事, 就是除了少數真正明白神心意的人以外, 世界看待或評估人和神看待人真的很不一樣.
夢的解釋:
異夢大體上是預表性的, 所以裡面的人事物沒有直接的意義. 我只解部分的地方來表達重點而不全說. 球場代表世界, 明星球員代表世界及人所有的自傲及自義. 紅色的油漆表示神在耶穌裡的救贖靠著耶穌流的血, 隨便的亂玩它表示極度輕視神的傲慢態度. 同一個球場(世界)第二回變了場景代表地上的同一個生命結束後到了另一處. 第二幕表示人地上的生命結束後, 來到屬靈的世界, 一個一直存在只是肉眼大部分時間看不見的空間. 在神的眼中和屬靈的世界裡, 一切人心的動機都是透明的, 無論是好是壞, 是善或惡. 那位小女生是一位我現實生活認識的人, 她的名字叫做Angel, 就是代表神的天使, 他們也能感覺到那些在地上人眼看不見的人心.
夢的中心信息:
在夢裡除了看見圖像外, 還能感受到(靈裡聽見)所賜的話語, 特別是聖經的經文. 在這第四個異夢裡, 最強烈最中心的經文就是:
撒母耳記上16:7 -- 「因為, 耶和華不像人看人: 人是看外貌; 耶和華是看內心.」
經文的背景是神藉先知撒母耳要膏大衛為王, 大衛卻根本不在場, 因為他的家人都瞧不起他. 撒母耳看上外貌吸引人的長子以利押, 那時神卻藉著知識的言語(林前12:8)啟示說不是以利押, 不要看外表來評論. 最後他們才叫來沒被請來還在放羊的大衛來. 大衛來了後, 這時神後給了撒母耳另一個新的知識的言語告訴他, 大衛才是神所揀選的受膏者.
在那個球場上和第二幕的場景有個非常, 非常強烈的對比. 在世界裡, 很多時候我們不曉得也看不見人的心, 講的話, 做的事到底動機是好是壞. 人會對很多世上發生的人事物有所評價, 很多時候, 這些人的意見卻和神的差很多, 甚至完完全全的相反. 的確, 總是會有少部分的人能真正明白神的心意(但真的寥寥無幾), 然後有些只是單純因為無知或不完全的了解而對於一些事情誤判. 當然有很多就是相信大眾的意見, 普遍流傳的話. 有些時候多數人的意見是對的, 因為神的靈會親自感動每個信徒(羅8:14). 但不是每一次多數的意見都一定是正確的, 如派去迦南地的十二個探子, 只有約書亞和迦勒是對的, 兩票對十票, 多數錯了(民13-14). 無論如何, 這些錯誤的判斷往往會造成不正確及不公平的後果. 但在第二幕, 就是神和天使的眼中, 人的心和所有的動機都是徹底透明的. 人所作的每一件事的出發點, 用意, 目的, 管道, 結果, 都隱藏不了.
馬太福音10:26 -- 「因為掩蓋的事沒有不露出來的, 隱藏的事沒有不被人知道的」.
所以到底對神來說, 什麼才是最大的善最大的好, 最像耶穌呢? 而什麼又是最大的罪, 最壞的心, 最不像耶穌? 這個夢裡面的一個很重要的信息就是, 很多人以為一些表面顯而易見的罪是很大的罪, 而對神來說, 最大的過犯卻是心裡頭的(可7:21), 不是外在的. 相對的, 最大的愛, 也是心裡面的, 即使外在一個人只是照常做著世人看似極微不足道之事.
馬太福音10:42 -- 「無論何人, 因為門徒的名, 只把一杯涼水給這小子裡的一個喝, 我實在告訴你們, 這人不能不得賞賜.」
馬可福音12:41-44 -- 「耶穌對銀庫坐著, 看眾人怎樣投錢入庫. 有好些財主, 往裡投了若干的錢. 有一個窮寡婦來, 往裡投了兩個小錢, 就是一個大錢. 耶穌叫門徒來, 說: 我實在告訴你們, 這窮寡婦投入庫裡的, 比眾人所投的更多. 因為他們都是自己有餘, 拿出來投在裡頭. 但這寡婦是自己不足. 把他一切養生的都投上了.」
這就是為什麼耶穌在詮釋舊約律法時, 特別強調心裡的殺人, 淫亂, 欺騙, 而不是只有外在的行為. 而真正的善, 就是有基督的樣式, 祂說了八福, 全都是專注在心靈上(太5). 聖靈所結的果子也都是心裡的, 之後才從外在表現出來(加5:22-23). 對神來說最大心裡的罪, 就是自以為義, 驕傲自私, 毀謗陷害, 無憐憫, 打著上帝的名號取利行惡, 用律法形式代替屬靈的真諦, 以人的吩咐而廢了神的誡命, 假冒為善等. 像耶穌在地上時很多法利賽人和文士那樣.
耶穌說:
馬太福音15:8-9 -- 「這百姓用嘴唇尊敬我, 心卻遠離我. 他們將人的吩咐, 當作道理教導人, 所以拜我也是枉然.」
對這些有權有勢高地位的法利賽人和文士, 祂給了祂在世上最重的責備(參馬太福音23章):
「不要效法他們的行為, 因為他們能說不能行.」

「他們把難擔的重擔, 捆起來擱在人的肩上. 但自己一個指頭也不肯動.」

「他們一切所作的事, 都是要叫人看見. 所以將佩戴的經文做寬了, 衣裳的繸子做長了. 喜愛筵席上的首座, 會堂裡的高位. 又喜愛人在街市上問他安, 稱呼他拉比.」

「你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們正當人前, 把天國的門關了. 自己不進去, 正要進去的人, 你們也不容他們進去.」

「你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們侵吞寡婦的家產假意作很長的禱告所以要受更重的刑罰.」

「你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們走遍洋海陸地, 勾引一個人入教. 既入了教, 卻使他作地獄之子, 比你們還加倍.」

「你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們將薄荷, 茴香, 芹菜, 獻上十分之一. 那律法上更重的事, 就是公義, 憐憫, 信實. 反倒不行了. 這更重的是你們當行的, 那也是不可不行的.」

「你們這瞎眼領路的, 蠓蟲你們就濾出來, 駱駝你們倒吞下去. 你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們洗淨杯盤的外面, 裡面卻盛滿了勒索和放蕩. 你這瞎眼的法利賽人, 先洗淨杯盤的裡面, 好叫外面也乾淨了.」

「你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們好像粉飾的墳墓, 外面好看, 裡面卻裝滿了死人的骨頭, 和一切的污穢.」

「你們也是如此, 在人前, 外面顯出公義來, 裡面卻裝滿了假善和不法的事.」

「你們這假冒為善的文士和法利賽人有禍了. 因為你們建造先知的墳, 修飾義人的墓, 說, 若是我們在我們祖宗的時候, 必不和他們同流先知的血. 這就是你們自己證明, 是殺害先知者的子孫了. 你們去充滿你們祖宗的惡貫罷. 你們這些蛇類, 毒蛇之種阿, 怎能逃脫地獄的刑罰呢.」

在保羅的書信裡, 雖然他警戒信徒要防備各樣的假教師異端, 希臘羅馬文化宗教和政治上的腐敗墮落, 但他最嚴厲的用詞卻是在那些自以為義的律法主義猶太人身上(參加拉太書).
同樣的, 今天大家比較會注意那些實質的雕刻偶像, 確忽略了人最大的偶像就是自己, 自我中心, 自私自利, 自高自大, 自命不凡. 在神看來卻是自我欺騙, 自不量力, 自打嘴巴, 自討苦吃, 自我毀滅. 想想本是高貴的天使路西佛絕對不是個蠢蛋, 絕不會無原無故的背叛神找死活的不耐煩了. 牠不是沒有腦袋瓜, 牠墮落是因為牠被自己的驕傲給完全的矇蔽住了, 牠只看的到自己, 自己的美麗尊貴, 自己的才華力量, 自己的勝利, 跟隨自己的天使, 牠自己就是牠的神. 所以牠徹徹底底的失敗了.
今天基督徒或教會最大的罪不是外在的殺人, 放火, 姦淫. 是的, 這些是非常嚴重的錯誤, 也有嚴重的後果. 但通常人只會把焦點都放這些顯而易見的事上. 特別是那些自已為義的人, 最喜歡突顯宣傳甚至不實的誇大抹黑這些他人的錯, 好顯的自我「公義」, 而他們自己更大心裡的罪卻被掩蓋起來, 但最終, 「掩蓋的事, 沒有不露出來的. 隱藏的事, 沒有不被人知道的」(路12:2). 只是時間的問題而已, 惡有惡報, 善有善報, 不是不報, 只是時辰未到, 時候一到, 一切全報. 善盈而後福, 惡盈而後禍. 沒有一樣惡行是能隱藏遮蓋永遠的. 如果有人不以為然, 是還不知道天高地厚(彼前4:1-6).
加拉太書6:7 -- 「不要自欺, 神是輕慢不得的. 人種的是甚麼, 收的也是甚麼.」
馬太福音15:13 -- 「穌回答說, 凡栽種的物, 若不是我天父栽種的, 必要拔出來.」
神當然不是要人完全, 耶穌來正是因為要拯救非常不完全的罪人, 祂來不是要定罪, 而是要拯救(約3:17), 不是要找康健的人, 而是有病的人. 所以有病才需要看醫生, 只是有些人也絕對不會承認自己有錯. 這就是為什麼在神眼裡, 最大的罪不是外在的殺人放火(雖然這也是大罪), 而是假冒為善及內心的自傲, 就是撒旦犯的錯.
馬可福音12:40 -- 「這些人要受更重的刑罰.」
反觀有些世界甚至基督徒永遠也不會注意的名不見經傳的小弟兄姊妹, 即使無地位無聚光燈的照射, 如果默默的忠心擺上, 因為心裡愛神愛人, 那他們在神眼中要稱為大的.
路加福音9:48 -- 「對他們說, 凡為我名接待這小孩子的, 就是接待我. 凡接待我的, 就是接待那差我來的. 你們中間最小的, 他便為大.」
馬太福音25:40 -- 「王要回答說, 我實在告訴你們, 這些事你們既作在我這弟兄中一個最小的身上, 就是作在我身上了.」
切記這絕對不是單指外在的好行為, 而是內心裡的愛. 這就是為什麼保羅說, 「我若將所有的賙濟窮人, 又捨己身叫人焚燒, 卻沒有愛, 仍然與我無益」(林前13:3). 一個人捨了自己的生命, 一個外在表現最大的犧牲(約15:13; 約壹3:16), 但若動機不是因為愛(可能是因為要吸引別人的注意, 或出於律法傳統, 或出於罪惡感的心態), 就在神眼中是毫無意義和紀念的.
所以有些人即使因著環境受傷, 或一時軟弱, 很多時後在神眼中這些暫時軟弱跌倒的信徒還比那些永遠已自我為中心的假冒為善之人還要屬靈的多了. 耶穌在地上的事工絕大部分的時間沒有太嚴厲的責備那些税吏和妓女, 祂有要他們悔改不要再犯罪了. 而祂最嚴厲的指責卻是在那些外表看來從來沒殺人放火犯姦淫的猶太宗教領袖. 其實事實是什麼呢? 在神的眼中, 這些後者已經在他們心裡不知殺了上百個人, 犯了多少對神和對人的不忠誠, 屬靈的淫亂(太5:21-28). 所以當神審判的時候, 前者一時軟弱殺了一個人, 有真實的傷心悔改, 後著在心裡殺了100個人, 又使許許多多的人跌倒, 還自以為義, 請問在神看來誰的罪比較大呢? 諷刺的是, 人總只是看到外表, 包括許多基督徒和教會.
這就是為什麼耶穌曾講過這個比喻:
路加福音1:9-14
「耶穌向那些仗著自己是義人, 藐視別人的, 設一個比喻: 說, 有兩個人上殿裏去禱告. 一個是法利賽人, 一個是稅吏. 法利賽人站著, 自言自語的禱告說, 神阿, 我感謝你, 我不像別人, 勒索, 不義, 姦淫(注意這都是他自己以為的, 自己對自己的評價), 也不像這個稅吏. 我一個禮拜禁食兩次, 凡我所得的, 都捐上十分之一. 那稅吏遠遠的站著, 連舉目望天也不敢, 只捶著胸說, 神阿, 開恩可憐我這個罪人. 我告訴你們, 這人回家去, 比那人倒算為義了. 因為凡自高的, 必降為卑. 自卑的, 必升為高.」
這也是為什麼很多人不了解, 其實大衛與拔示巴的事和謀殺了她的丈夫烏利亞, 都是非常, 非常糟糕的罪. 但在事發幾百年後的新約啟示裡, 神還稱大衛為合祂心意的人(徒13:22), 甚至耶穌都叫做「大衛的子孫」(太1:1). 很多事情都是人眼看不見的. 不可否認的是, 大衛為著他的這些嚴重錯誤附上了極大的代價, 更何況他還是以一國君王的身分, 要負起更大的責任. 但在大衛的心裡, 他是確確實實的悔改了, 因為他始終是愛著他的神的. 甚至他的懺悔文詩篇51篇都被收錄為聖經的一部分. 許多他內心對神的愛慕也可從他作的詩裡看出. 更重要的是, 他抓到了那些最重要的事, 在神眼中看為最大的屬靈品質 -- 他真誠的愛神愛人(可12:29-31). 是的, 他不完全, 超不完全, 聖經也有記載他其他的缺點(例撒下24的數點百姓), 就像你我一樣不完全. 但神要求我們的不是每個外在行為言語上的完全, 即使在基督裡, 在神學上這是有可能的, 但祂最看重的就是我們的心. 在馬太福音耶穌說到, 「所以你們要完全, 像你們的天父完全一樣」(太5:48). 什麼樣的完全呢? 神絕對是不會吩咐我們一些我們在祂恩典裡做不到的事. 那耶穌說的「完全」(perfection)到底是什麼意思? 看路加福音耶穌在教導類似的訊息時(有些聖經學者認為是馬太和路加所記載的是同一件事, 有些認為是不同的時間說同一個主題), 祂詮釋了很清楚: 「你們要慈悲, 像你們的父慈悲一樣」(路6:36). 換句話說, 耶穌說指的「完全」是個心裡態度動機上的完全(heart perfection). 一個充滿神的愛和祝福的心, 是顆完全的心. 所以就算有時實際上做出或說出的不完全, 但如果心裡有愛有憐憫, 那這個人在神眼中比那些光有外在卻沒有太多愛的人要好的太多了(林前13:1-4).
基督徒和教會最大的罪和醜聞不是外在婚姻裡出問題或靈命一時軟弱等, 而是內心一般人看不見的自以為義, 驕傲, 律法主義, 不受教, 不知自我檢討只會責怪別人, 無憐憫, 對人的差別待遇, 各樣的手段操縱, 貪錢權名利. 過程中不知已經殺人殺了一百一千遍. 簡單來說就是沒有神的性情--愛, 謙和, 和憐憫(約壹4:7-8; 腓2:1-11; 路6:36). 當大家指頭都指向那些顯而易見的罪時, 其實對神來說更大的罪並不是這些. 大衛犯姦淫又謀殺, 但他真實悔改, 憐憫, 謙卑, 聽從先知拿單的指正. 相反的, 法利賽人想讓全世界都以為那些稅吏妓女就是他們所謂世界上的「大罪人」, 結果在神眼中他們自己犯的錯卻遠遠的超過那些罪人. 他們指責耶穌與這些罪人在一起相處吃飯是不潔的(太9:11), 以為神才和他們同在, 哪知神早就不與他們同在了, 卻與這些願意承認悔改謙卑的罪人一起. 這些法利賽人騙的自己騙的罪深(雙關語).
人是需要提醒管教的, 這是對我們好的. 好的父母會為了小孩的益處好好的管教一個被寵壞調皮沒大沒小的小朋友. 謙卑的人會承認我們都需要天父來管教, 在我們裡面總是有進步的空間. 結果是成長, 是喜樂, 是平安, 是真正的成熟(來12:11).
神有許多的屬性, 但神最中心的屬性是愛(弗3:14-19; 約壹4:7-21). 最靠近耶穌的使徒約翰被稱為愛的使徒. 所以真正成聖及越來越像基督的管道, 永遠不會是從外在的行為下手的, 雖然有時這些會有短暫的幫助. 真正成聖的導管, 是認識並被天父無比的大愛充滿, 因為只有我們先被愛, 我們才能去愛. 所以使徒約翰常稱自己為「耶穌所愛的門徒」(約21:20), 他因為知道自己被耶穌所深愛, 所以他才能去愛, 所以他後來就把這個經歷在聖靈的默示下寫出, 「我們愛, 因為神先愛我們」(約壹4:19). 重點是「神先愛我們」, 就像枝子連結在葡萄樹上, 結果子(我們愛)就只是個自然的結果(參約15, 也是使徒約翰寫的). 所以重點不是在「結果子」, 而是在與耶穌連結, 住在祂對你我的愛裡.
愛永遠是勉強不來的. 所以愛絕對不能是出於懼怕或補償或罪惡感的, 不管是對神或是對人. 愛, 是心甘樂意的. 人的心可以是個小天堂或是小地獄. 天堂及地獄的心境, 都不是等到死後才開始的, 就像永生(eternal life)不是等到去了天堂後才開始的(約3:16; 林後5:17).
「因為那不憐憫人的, 也要受無憐憫的審判. 憐憫原是向審判誇勝.」(雅2:13)
其實這第四個異夢裡的訊息聖經裡早有清楚的說明, 但很多時候人讀了很多遍還是看不見. 記得耶穌說過撒種的比喻. 撒的種(神的話)在四個不同的土地上都是同樣的種子, 不一樣的是接收的土壤, 代表人的心(可4). 如果我們真的想要效法耶穌, 就要效法祂的心. 在福音書裡耶穌唯一一次直接清楚的說明祂內心的正面態度時, 祂說了: 「我心裡柔和謙卑, 你們當負我的軛, 學我的樣式, 這樣, 你們心裡就必得享安息」(太11:29).
有看清楚嗎? 真的有嗎? 祂說...
我「心」裡...
「心」裡柔和謙卑.
「心」裡「柔和」謙卑.
「心」裡「柔和」「謙卑」.
心還是最重要的. 心靈的柔和謙卑才是真正的屬靈指標.
箴言4:23 -- 「你要保守你心, 勝過保守一切, 因為一生的果效, 是由心發出.」
這就是這第四個異夢的信息:
耶和華不像人看人, 人是看外貌, 耶和華是看... 「內心」(撒上16:7).
讓你我的心成為祂愛的居所.
「我所禱告的, 就是要你們的愛心, 在知識和各樣見識上, 多而又多」(腓1:9)
主愛裡.
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