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Beautiful Love
 
作詞：葛大為     作曲：阿沁
演唱：蔡健雅
 
 
看住時間 別讓它再流浪
從前我 太適應悲傷
你的出現在無意中 卻深深撼動我
一起走著 沒說什麼 心是滿足的
這個世界 隨時都要崩塌
我沒有 其他的願望
假如明天將消失了 趁現在我愛著
只想記得 被你抱著 溫熱的感受
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我失去過 更珍惜擁有
多慶幸我是我 被你疼愛的我
緊緊牽住的手 不要放手 永遠守護我
Love's beautiful so beautiful
我很快樂 你會了解我
我不會再哭泣 是因為我相信
我們勇敢的愛著 每秒鐘 都能證明 一生的美麗
Love's beautiful so beautiful
 
 
 
 
特別獻給：十年後手紙

今天的太陽特別的溫暖
我聽說他曾經破產兩次過  好像是結婚了以後
但是可能她離不開他  她也許說了
我這輩子跟定你了
我身邊總是會有感人的故事
昨晚我又被她抱了一次  好溫暖
一個真愛的擁抱  會叫人忘了如何憂慮
這樣的相遇  天父爸爸要我學習要我看
這生命最重要的東西  是一份無私無悔的愛
耶穌的愛
我的確學了很多
祂說  你也照樣去行
我還要教你更多  只要你願意選擇謙卑
選擇讓愛成為你這一生活著的目的

I prayed Ephesians 3:14-21 for each of you today. The most important area in ministry and in your personal life is to grow in the love of God. Too many times we concentrate on "What" we are to do but we do not realise that the "Why" we do it determines both the success and the eternal impact. It is possible to do ministry without the pure motivation of love for God and for others. Paul points to this in Philippians 1:15-17. Yes, it is even possible to operate the gifts without love (1 Corinthians 13:1-3). Everything that is not done out of the motivation of love is consumed in the light of eternity (1 Corinthians 3:11-14). None of us wants to waste out time in doing something for years and find out in eternity that all the work is considered nothing because our motivation was for self glory, self maintenance, etc. If you are ever tired of ministry, depressed in ministry, feel frustration or irritation; then something is not right. You have lost your balance. The only way to restore balance back into your life and ministry is to get back into the love of God.
From the time that we are born again, a measure of the love of Christ was poured into our lives (Romans 5:1-5). This love of God within us needs to grow until we know the width, length, depth and height of God's love. It will take all of our earthly life to grow into the fullness of this love. In the ministry, we need to desire that we feel the same intensity of love for the world that the Father has (John 3:16). We need to feel the same intensity of love for people that Jesus felt when He freely gave His life on the cross for each of us (Roman 5:8; 1 John 3:16). This intensity of love needs to grow from day to day; it is not an instant overnight process (thus the reason for Paul's Ephesians chapter 3 prayer). As an allegory, I will use the word "frequency" to convey the meaning of this growth in love. Imagine that the highest frequency in the Spiritual World is the pure and holy love of God (God is love 1 John 4:8). And from the highest frequency of God's dimension, the frequency is lessened or diminished through the many myriads of spiritual spheres until it reaches the physical realm, which is the lowest frequency. Those of us who are still physically on this earth receive but a minute measure of this frequency of love (which to us is already overflowing). Having been born of the Spirit of God and of love, we now need to grow into this higher frequency. It cannot be done overnight as we need to be daily tuned a little bit more each day - otherwise the sudden increase in frequency is too great for the instrument and may cause the instrument to be destroyed. Day by day as we are used to the higher frequency, we are tuned further into a still higher frequency.
For this reason, we need to take time each day and pray, worship and meditate to allow this tuning process to take place. Also each day as we find our love exhausted, we need to return to re-fill in the love of God. All healing, all power and all ministry flows from the higher frequency to the lower frequency. When the frequency and vibrations within an individual are in disharmony sickness or other ailments of the soul and body take hold. We need to be honest and admit that we all don't really love people as much as God the Father and Jesus does; we are all getting there but we are not there yet. Also when we stand to minister to people or when we pray for another person, the most important consciousness is to be conscious of the love of God for the people rather than to be conscious of their needs. For what they physically need or expressed a need of may be diverse and different - purely symptoms of a greater spiritual need - but what they all really need is the love of God. (All soul and physical ailments are only symptoms of the disharmony of frequencies within a person). Thus when we become channels of the frequency of God's love, we are meeting the true need of the people (and not just their symptoms). From the restoration of the frequencies within those ministered to, many miracles and healings and other soul and physical breakthroughs result. (Remember that I am using allegories here to express a spiritual principle and a spiritual phenomena that is taking place in the spiritual realm. It is difficult to express spiritual things using natural illustrations but this is as good as it gets in figurative language. What is expressed is true and real in the Spiritual World).
The day our hearts and lives vibrate with the same height of frequency of God's love, is the day that we will be doing the works and the greater works of Jesus (John 14:12). And if our hearts and lives are not vibrating with a measure of the frequency of God's love in ministry and life, all that is being done would be wasted and of no eternal value. The greatest is love (1 Corinthians 13:13).
From Pastor Peter Tan

I knew all along that this was coming
I will not run away, I will not hide
I will not pretend, I will face it courageously
Nobody gets hurt
Not my God
Not my love He made
God understands my actions
But sometimes people do not always
I offered up my love everyday
I went through death everyday
I know one day my love will understand
Because true love will last forever
I suddenly remembered why Jesus rebuked the Pharisees
Religion, religion, and religion
Wrong a million times, says Jesus
There is only one way to reconciliation
The way of Jesus
The way of the Cross
The sacrifice
 
Now let the tears flow
I know I will rejoice once again
Maybe years and years later
Maybe in the corridors of eternity
But I know sacrifice is the only way
The only way
So that nobody will get hurt
The way of the One Who taught me what love is
To sacrifice like He did
He said I'll never know how He loved a person if I've never sacrificed... my all
And my love who is valued more than my own life
Oh Lord, here I come
I've chosen this path and You know I don't go back on my words
I've chosen pain and death
Because finally I can conform just a little bit more to Your image
One day
 
My love will see the Way, the Truth and the Life
One day
My love will finally see Jesus
My love will fall in love with Jesus
That day, my sacrifice will not seem like a great price
In that, I take great joy, even though it hurts so much
 
But it's ok
 
Because my love's smile has become my vision now
 
And this is the greatest revelation of Jesus Christ
 
He died for love's sake
 

"It is more blessed to give than to receive" -- Jesus Christ (Acts 20:35)

I took a walk in the nearby park in the evening. The sky was so blue, so clear, and so nice and mellow. The dusk has always been my fav. On the way to the familiar green pasture, I saw a cat with a collar, it's gotta be someone's pet. But he seemed to be lost. He tried to hide as he saw me, scared. When I attempted to approach him slowly, he quickly ran away. If he was lost, where was he going? I thought that was me, many many years ago. Not long after, I spotted another cat, unexpectedly. He was comfortably sitting on a window sill high up, gazing into the beautiful sky, enchanted. How nice, I thought, and I felt that was me. I too, captivated by the sky, and two cats, but they were really one. And the cat has got a home now.
I walked two laps at the park, listening to my baby iPod Little White. The playlist was the Love Songs series. After that, I rested at a bench, relaxed, lifted up my eyes to above. The sky was just so soft and gentle, it seemed to be beaming at me. Somehow I knew deep in my heart, it was.
As I got up to leave, I heard some noise, saw something rushing in. A dad drove a big toy jeep, cruising along wildly by the park with his son tucked in, snuggled in the bosom of his papa. I looked at the face of the dad, then the son, there was no way that they could hide their laughter and fun, even if they wanted to try.
I was touched... and Little White began to sing that song, "It Must be You."
I felt happy, I felt real, I felt joyful and peaceful, bewildered in the most romantic way. At that moment, I thought I had a glimpse of the Heavenly Garden, no human vocabularies could ever describe her beauty.
It just dawned on me time and time again: the most profound truth in life but understood by the simple in heart.
I am home Father. There will be no feeling better than this.
 
"'For this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' And they began to be merry. " (Luke 15:24)

I've never cried so much in my life
 
But these may be the most meaningful tears I've had
 
I heard He said I'll cry more
 
But He also promised me that I'll have much joy
 
For those who sow in tears shall reap in joy
 
And to be honest and broken before Him is the way
 
He said
 
Love is the best way to learn and learn to love is the best way
 
He asks me why am I crying
 
He says if my heart is not pure and sincere
 
Then that is not His love
 
He said if I want one hundred percent purity of heart
 
Then I must learn to see that 0.01% of impurity
 
Get rid of all selfishness even if it's only 0.01% impure
 
The best for each one
 
The encouragement always comes with a promise
 
The pure in heart shall see God
 
He says if it's about my own sanctity then I've missed it altogether
 
True holiness is never an outward religious display
 
The beauty of holiness is only there when Love is there
 
When Jesus is there
 
It's not so much about being "faultless" for all have sinned
 
It's only when I could see that God loved through all imperfect people completely
 
That's where true holiness begins
 
That's when I need to learn more about grace, mercy, compassion and courage
 
That's when I will know better what it really means to sacrifice without any mixed motives
 
He said though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor and though I give my body to be burned
 
But have not love it profits me nothing
 
That's why He said to me if I cry for love
 
Then go on crying when I feel His heart and people's hearts
 
Then cry
 
Keep on crying for love's sake
 
So now this has become the desire of my heart
 
 
 
When a thousand years have passed
 
When a thousand times a thousand years
 
Nay, when eternities upon eternities have passed
 
I will still be able to say "I love you"
 
To Him and to all those who are dearly created in His own image
 
 
 
I love you
 
 
 
 

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Addendum: notes from my Facebook:
 
When love overflows, I know I live to love Him, and love people with exactly the same kind of love.
When love overflows, I am completely undone.
When love overflows, that's when I hear the voice of my Father.
Where there is this kind of pure, selfless, unconditional love flowing, one will find Divinity,
And one will see the face of Jesus.
 
Status: George is "always in love..."
Hey I like that!!! =)

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最後一次寫應該是2005年在台灣要回溫哥華的時候
 
在之前的好幾次  什麼時候的事  大概不可考了吧
 
雖然已有些模糊
 
但我知道那是我要做的事
 
沒有遺憾  只剩下甜蜜的回憶
 
儘管我或許已忘記了很多很多
 
 
 
兩年後  事情有很多變化
 
我
 
有些地方需要改進  需要不斷的進步
 
有些地方卻永遠不要變
 
永遠不會改變
 
你懂我
 
 
 
猴媽
 
請你好好寫
 
請你  用心  去感同身受
 
 
 
你懂
 
茱麗葉的眼淚
 
和
 
幸福的手稿
 
他交給你
 
 
 
也許  在幾年之後  沒有人會記得
 
你自己也會忘記
 
不過你知道
 
有一天我們都會再想起
 
那時將會是永遠美好的記憶
 
 
 
心  會記得
 
毛毛蟲會蛻變
 
美麗的蝴蝶
 
自由飛舞吧
 
 
 
猴媽
 
你該高興
 
該很高興
 
因為這一切  不為什麼
 
只因為愛

"...with unleavened bread and with bitter herbs they shall eat it." (Exodus 12:8b--Passover Instructions)
Last Friday evening, my church had a Jewish Passover celebration done by a Jewish Rabbi couple. It was unique for me. He explained the symbolism behind the foods and meal etiquette. The pillow (or cushion) which we sat on represented our freedom in Christ, since slaves were not allowed to sit. The holes and the burning marks on the unleavened bread pointed to Jesus' being pierced and flogged. The salt water was taken from the Dead Sea, so it was kosher. What impressed me the most was the horseradish, which was supposed to be the "bitter herbs." This represented the taste of "sin," and we had to eat this together with the unleavened bread. It had a sour and pungent taste, nobody liked it. It was done to remember the price Jesus paid for us, that He tasted sin and all its consequences for us. There was also another sweet thing that we took together with the unleavened bread, representing God's grace that is sweet to our souls. Lastly, we have to take both of them, the bitter herbs and the sweet thingy together with the unleavened bread.
The bitter herb was really bitter and sour, no doubt. For me it was not so bad. I guess because of the acid taste in my mouth from the stomach reflux 24/7 had made me more tolerant of sours. We also had to drink four cups of grape juice, each symbolized something, such as the cup of redemption. While I was taking in the bitter herb, my Father spoke to my heart. The sour taste from the reflux was not very pleasant at all, and it is there all the time, I had no choice. It has been almost two years, I often wondered why it's not somebody else, but I knew the answer. The pain of the world because of sin is real. He wanted me to taste a little bit of what He tasted. He gave me the cup of suffering. He asked me if I'd drink it. I said yes, but it didn't come the way I'd expected. Still I said yes, not because I wanted to show that I could do something for Him. He said, for love, are you willing?
When I put the bitter herb into my mouth, it was sour but I actually felt a kind of emotion that was beyond an emotion. It was pain, it was love, it was bitterness, but it was joy. He asked if I sensed it, I said yes, I had from the beginning. That's when my Father told me to change my Chronicle of Tears to Chronicle of Tears and Joy. Then my Friend said, when He was hung on the Cross, it was a mixture of suffering and joy. He then handed me the cup of joy. It was joyful because I learned what love is. I felt I came closer to know Who Love is. Suddenly I knew I could take in more bitter herbs, and the cup of suffering, and I wanted to.
After the Last Supper, they sang hymns and proceeded to the Garden of Gethsemane. According to Jewish tradition, one of the psalms they sang was Psalm 118. It's a love paradox but it's not. My Friend sang, "This is the day the Lord has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it" (v. 24). It was the day that He was to experience the greatest pain ever known to humanity. He wept bitterly in the Garden, but He also rejoiced afterward. He said "for the joy that was set before Him..." (Heb. 12:2a). He didn't need to finish, I said I knew, I am feeling it. At that moment, I saw what He saw, heard what He heard, and felt what He felt. I can never explain the suffering and joy of that moment.
I'm not sure how long the sour taste in my mouth is going to be there, but I could also feel the love in my heart--love for me and for the brokenhearted. The lamb of the Passover was good, so were the other foods. Actually the four cups of grape juice were pretty good. But I remembered the bitter herbs the most. My heart longed for them the most. It's a strange feeling, a mixed feeling. Strangely warm, strangely bitter, strangely sad, and strangely happy. And I know they are all so real. Gently, the affection of Christ came. Tears wanted to cross their boundaries again. I wonder, what are tears made of, probably something bittersweet. However, He said in the end, it's always going to be sweet, and the end will come. And the suffering will only make the joy more glorious, and more joyful.
He said and I heard. I took in the cup of suffering and the cup of joy. He said my Orange Days, like an orange, sometimes sourish and sometimes sweet, sometimes sweet and sour altogether. But if I eat it for Love's sake, joy will always abound in my heart, because love has been perfected.
I'll never forget these words: if Love becomes all that I am, if Love motivates all that I say and do, I'll have truly known the Friendship of Jesus. To share in His heart is suffering. To share in His suffering is joy. The only reason is, it's not about us. Love has dawned; Love gave. One day I'll celebrate the days when we walked together in suffering and joy on this Earth, for the wounds of the world. That's when we will drink of the fruit of the vine once again.
I will definitely need a lot of kleenex on that Day, for tears of joy and thankfulness. And I guess Heaven's kleenex would be a lot better  and whiter too.
=')
"Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Heb. 12:2).

John 15:13 "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends."
I want them to have lots of friends
Friends who will really care for them
Who will really listen
I want every one of them happy
I want this to be done
I know He is the Friend
Feeling one drop of sorrow in His heart
I am completely undone
Still I cry, because I might not see it on their faces or hear it with my ears
But I have entered into their hearts
It's so much more than a look
It's love calling for an experience
That we will never be able to forget for eternity
We will never be the same
It's our most intimate Friend
He is not just the King of kings and Lord of lords
But also the Friend of friends
The Lover of lovers
The Bridegroom's calling for His Bride
Would You?
Would You teach me to love them as You do?
Would You teach me to be their friend as You do?
Would You teach me to feel for them and shed these tears for them?
They are not just "people"
They are Jesus' friends and my friends
Friends, with tears trickling down our faces
We love you
We love you not for what you have or can do
We love you for who you are
We love you because you are so dear and precious to us
We would lay down our lives for you, for real
No regrets
We would take the tears of the world upon us
Somehow I know
Our tears of pain will become their tears of joy
For that
I live
For love
I cry

My Father has started this
The strong emotions to cry



Just wanna cry
For love's sake
Just seeing her face makes me wanna cry
I don't know why it is especially her that makes my tears flow so easily
I don't understand it, I don't comprehend it fully
I can't help it
But I feel it deep inside my heart
My Father is teaching me to see beyond the looks and words
When I sense it (everyday and moment), it hurts so much
Because it's so real and so true
I cannot fake it
My Father's heart for her
For all His beloved children and creation
I wanted to write this down
My chronicle of tears
For torn-apart lives, for wounded souls
It comes to a point that if I could exchange everything and my life
To make it better, to make it bright and sunny again
I would, I will
I think it no coincidence that today is Easter
Yes, I would, to give up even life
That's why Jesus died for me, for her
And for everyone
Just to see one smile is enough
It is enough
It is worth it
It is worth my God's life
And much more than my own
I heard my Father's heart
My Father's tears
Has become my tears
These tears will truly make one happy
Love is the only reason
I sensed it again
I am going to cry again tonight

 
 
 
我體會（一秒的安慰）
 
 
「明天再遙遠，不過是訓練，訓練多疼你一點。」
「再多的考驗，不過是訓練，訓練更多的瞭解。」
 
 
一個下午在外面整理花園的時候，看到有精神問題的鄰居。
帶著安全帽，是怕受傷和傷害別人嗎？
我心裡在想，不會讓他一個人的，加油。
那是一個靈魂，勇敢的選擇這個身分，來到這個世上。
能夠在心中默默的為他祝福，是我的榮幸。
想落淚的衝動，我繼續做著花園工作。
已經有些疲憊了，我在想你的感受。
 
我很想要你的擁抱，即使我被抱過。
一個早晨要在教會上課前，又是那位大姊，過來抱我。
她是很真誠的，我在想除了她是天使外還有什麼理由。
沒有為什麼，非常驀然的，是你瞭解我的需要。
我真的沒預料到，你的溫柔，平靜我的一切。
 
連電視劇的名字，我也不放過你。
我唱了曖昧，其實歌詞都不熟悉，即興的而已。
那真的是，惡魔在身邊的片尾曲。
我想起，在本子上寫下的人名和心願。
我非常非常的感動。
原來，即便有惡魔在身邊，也隔絕不了你的愛。
只會寫下一個更美的結局。
 
一個夜半，忘了幾點。
用我微酸的嘴巴，含糊的口詞，代禱著。
你說眼淚不是恩賜，大家都可以有的。
一位還不是很熟的人，卻讓我一想到就要流淚。
感受到了他的痛，我哭因為我體會，因為你要我體會。
如果因著這些眼淚，可以帶給他一秒的安慰，你一定會很高興。
我在想，那這樣也有帶給你一些些的安慰嗎？
承認吧，其實你比我更傷心難過，再乘上好多好多倍。
那就讓我的眼淚，帶給你一些微甜的滋味。
還是該睡了，已經很晚了吧。
想念你的心情，也許傳達了一萬遍也不夠。
無意間，我開始打噴嚏，我打了七次噴嚏。
 
一個生命，我在想。
他們都是我的鄰舍，都是我的鄰舍。
把他們傷心難過，通通都擦去。
還有你，因為你能完全體會他們的感受，完全的瞭解。
所以你給我考驗，給我訓練，只因為你我都相信著。
有一天，這些眼淚，會化成最美麗的醫治。
而我就照著你擺在我心中的照片。
我看見青草地上，他們在笑著，安歇的水邊，她們在跳著舞。
看著他們，我就可以繼續前進，繼續的努力。
疲憊的身心，淚水的澆灌，會值得，花園裡會綻放出最漂亮的花兒。
所以我的神，我的鄰舍，請別再哭泣了。
請給我一個最幸福的微笑，因為你會知道這份愛是真心真意的。
 
 

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我體會
 
基督耶穌的心腸
 
切切的想念你們眾人
 
這是神可以給我作見證的
 
（聖經腓利比書1:8）
 

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一秒的安慰
（惡魔在身邊插曲）
 
曲：曹宣賓  詞：李焯雄  編：Adam Lee  演唱：黃義達
 
 
閉上眼就看見你的側臉 這感覺像你還靠在我肩
沿著你眉間 輕撫憂鬱的眼 讓失眠的我守在你的夢裡面
想聽見你的呼吸在耳邊 這音樂能平靜我的一切
明天再遙遠 不過是訓練 訓練多疼你一點
 
 
一秒的安慰 是我想你的滋味
微甜的滋味 讓我能去面對
欠你的安慰 儘管你從不曾說累
你寂寞的眼 我發現 對你總不夠體貼

一秒的安慰 是那思念的滋味
微甜的滋味 給你力氣面對
溫柔的安慰 讓它流入你的心扉
給我機會 去體會 生命裡有你多美
 
 
想聽見 你說的任何字眼 會溫暖 這顆心忘了疲倦
再多的考驗 不過是訓練 訓練更多的瞭解